Friday, June 22, 2007

Last camp.

All the sweat, blood, tears, throws, bruises, cuts and various other aches and pains put into every, single camp. Ended in these 3 days. Every camp was dreaded undoubtedly by every single one of my teammates but somehow we pulled through! :) The J2s Carl, Thomas, Jit, Velden, Wp, Ter, Yk, its been great training with them. Even when the times were tough, somehow all the aches and pains vanished in everything we expect after training :P All the crap we talked after training, and laughing at all sorts of stupid and random things. Constantly discussing about our mentality of looking forward to the next meal, or the next break, or fantansizing of manually making the clock turn faster so that it would all come to an end.

6 years.

And now Nationals is barely 2 weeks away. The last nationals i'll ever fight in. Its been a crazily bumpy journey. From being unable to eat meals from fear of puking during training, going half an hour early to not fear the crazy sessions, to just simply training my heart out to a single goal. All the complaining which i do a lot i admit, all the pain, all the dread, all the happiness at the end, the satisfaction of completion, the crazy euphoria of breaking another limit, the aches and pains of a weary body, the drain of the mind at every bout, the sacrifice of the holidays, family time, time with frens, just to train and train. It's all close to an end.

The 501 pumpings which took 3 hours to complete, the red hot tiles near the track where we did push ups on the hottest afternoon in 3 years, the carry on the backs, hundreds to thousands of throws, breaking falls, abrasions, ebis!!, extra trainings, frog jumps, becoming crazy memories to hold on to. Thank you all so much :) for the memories.

Let's do our best.

Ever heard some rhetorical questions which you wanted to answer otherwise? I think that's a thought that flashed through my mind today. Sometimes i just don't really agree with how people think, but then again its just human to have individual thought.

Just your presence is sufficient. I can't explain but i couldn't have survived today without it. It was crazy and weariness is overwhelming. Thank You for always being there in me :)

The pressure is on. Disadvantaged from having so many camps. But i can't help it. Time to do what i can.

I wait on the Lord.