Friday, June 15, 2007

First Frontier

Maybe my very last camp with the group but surely, surely a memorable one.

A camp with many firsts.
My first time on stage, performing to a crowd of hundreds.
The first time i shepherded sheep on camp.
The first time i slept less than 4-5 hours each nite.
The first time i was able to meet my shepherd :)
The first time i sat, lived and breathed the same air and listened to the same word of God with such a big group. :)
The first time i was so busy really :X
The first time we threw a person out of the camera screen x.x
The first time the JC district came together :)
The first time the brothers came together and decided:)
The first time wearing suspenders x.x
The first time we wore a CG SHIRT! :)
The first time i saw 30 lives changed, (at least around 30) fired up, sparked into action and totally truly inspired.

3 words. It was beautiful.
Thank you for making it come to pass :)

I felt myself falling to my knees more than once, because i could feel it in my heart, a spirit moving within me and speaking to me.

I saw the importance of my studies more so than ever. In camp. Of all places. But for that moment, i felt the great burden but the great realization. I need to do something. Something has to happen. So i put myself accountable. I needed to. I wanted to. And i needed people and God to hear it. I see the obstacles, but i know i can and want to over come it. I need to change.

Many new friends made in camp from the brand new, exciting district. JC District! Most of them from G.A.P which was a success, thank God, and i think a big thank you goes out to my partner Melvin, because we went through all the dance moves one day before the actual :P and we survived and the hard work during the practices we did :).
Kim, for going through all the complaints and rejections from us singers, and always persevering and helping us as much as possible, really thank God for you although we rejected so many things until you were quite pissed i think haha!
Katarina, who watched out dance moves when we produced them and offering various suggestions :p :).
Daixuan, who always smiles -.- as Melvin points out x.x, for all the help with the harmonising and singing :).
Vonne for giving her suggestions during our rehearsals.
Shawn, for praying for me and trying to calm my nerves continuously before the actual, though he was nervous with the band too haha! P1-P3 classmate! Thanks for being fun to talk to and being a lame, act seh neighbour :P.
Kaiwen, the music pro, who did all sorts of funny things and fixed up the harmony for the girl's song. Seriously his music is- pro.
Jonathan- The other me! The "hi jon" conversations were ultimately lame but thanks for being such a funny and random guy to be with. The youngest of all of us to boot :P.
Yongle, our drummer who is probably one of the people i talk to more. He's really fun and nice to talk to, dunno how else to describe him :P His house name is Polo of all things :P!

The dancers, who put in so much effort!! Maurise, for being hyper and approving and determined to make us dance despite us being quite scared by you at times! A small special shoutout to fongy who has continuously be saying "jiayou" to me at almost every practise and rehearsal. ( yes i notice :P) A big THANK YOU :) And i think that's all the G.A.P crew :)
The only picture i had with part of the crew! The dancers from CA3-4, lilin and spongy :P
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I really had fun with the caregroup! Every single moment. Mangseh, the lame IQ games which made us the last group to leave sports sch, the sharing, the little moments of encouragement, our grace saying, the enthusiasm, the excitement and most of all the prescence. The HC cheers on the third night were crazy and i think Raphael is doing an amazing job with the JCs :) JIAYOU RAPHAEL :). I also realise that we have so many hopes put on us. Because we've shown that we can get this far and i think we want to prove that God's grace does not end here! CG 08 will be a success :). We really need to sustain this desire and fire, keep going, keep believing and keep living out your dreams.

This camp was also an answered prayer. Thank God for my dear sheep, and buddy for responding. I think camp really is the best medicine for a strong foundation. And i think the word has struck him and has brought him far and I really look forward to serving beside you all the way! :)

I really had a good talk with you and i think we're gonna make a difference! :)
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I finally had a talk with my shepherd :) Although i think i wasn't very clear or coherent at that time, (at 4-6Am, i think we were both a bit zonked), but it was a good talk i guess. And looking forward to our next. Thank you very much for your encouragement through out the camp, at rehearsals, and praying for me although you were busy and totally tired out. Like i always say, i'm looking forward to continue walking this spiritual walk with you. Thank you for giving and blessing me with so much :)

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Persevere. Ask. Believe. Desire. The four words which rang the loudest. I'm not a good finisher. That's a wake up call. I ask for the wrong things as well at times, wake up call 2. Where has my heart been for the past 4 months? I've seen and heard. And i remember one word which rang in my heart at encounter exactly one year ago. Impact. How could i forget? Only if i ask will you call. Not my will but yours be done. Call on me and i will respond.
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CG guys. A totally crazy bunch. The talk on the first night was really inspiring for me, because our hearts are in the same place, beating at the same rhythm. This is the care we need, this is the desire we need, this is the dream we need to live. let's go together. And stop veeting each other x.x
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People of DK :) who were at camp. I dunno if your reading this but i wanna let you know that i really appreciate your words and your encouragement. I've really been encouraged by both of you with your desires, with your dreams. I've finally found people to share my dream. The prayer that was said in the roar of the music, do you remember? The things we prayed for and the desperation. I dunno how to put it but thank you. Thank you so very much. Because i really feel that i have people who listened to this long stifled desire. I love you guys. Let's grow together more!
Aunty-ness:)
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Everytime i've prayed to grow or to be challenged, i've never been failed. Although i fear, but i always know that at the end, i won't regret a single moment of it. Never. Every moment i spend, I know its worth my life. I know I'm afraid right now of the challenges that i will face, but i don't want to ever back down because i know someone has got my back :).

I love someone, ask me who. My adaptation of a quote :)
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Like i read on fungg's blog, people who read my blog and wonder why i talk about God so much. Simply because my life goes around Him and i know He's changed it around. I don't know if you've noticed it but i've changed a lot from how i once was. If you wanna know how, you can ask me :)
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J1s, I'll be praying for you guys :).
J2s I'll be praying for you guys too haha :) Maybe slightly differently
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Now after all the random thots and haphazard things i've written, which may have been a pain to read. Pictures! From all over the place. Sorry for koping! x.x
:)

Orange:)

If all the world's a stage...

... we're living for the audience of one


not about the number, but simply because we love all of you.