Tuesday, October 31, 2006

You Are 23 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

Well, i can't explain this but this is how it turned out :X

Monday, October 30, 2006

Spent so much time with You today!

I wanna say i reallie reallie Love You wahahhaa!

I'm currently very addicted to God wheee!

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Love is spelled T-I-M-E.

Some things can't be helped or changed. As i lift it all up to the Lord...

I am willing to do all i can...

I have no idea why i'm flaking off like that, or why this is affecting me unconciously. I'm trying to control it all the time... but i just can't help feeling that itty bitty bitter feeling which eats into me. I wonder if the past will ever come again. Maybe, maybe not.

But that's not up to me to decide.

Thursday, October 26, 2006
Something short.

Something i read. From a random blog.

Do not marry a person
that you know that you can live with,
only marry someone that you cannot live without.

Thought it made sense... and was a beautiful way to put it.

Though I am free and belong to no man, I make myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God's law but am under Christ's law), so as to win those not having the law. To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all men so that by all possible means I might save some. I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings.

1 Corinthians 9:19-23

Simplicity is beautiful. Lead by being the Servant.

Oct 26

I thought that it'd be ok... but i guess things are never too simple. I guess it hurts more than i thought it would hurt, when i feel so held back. I trust that God will someday solve this problem that plagues us, someday soon i hope!!! ( truly!)
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CG was great today except i got lost at Esplanade! I can't believe i said the wrong thing while welcoming pple to caregroup to everyone at CG, I'M REALLY SORRY!!!!! I feel quite bad about it... coz it sounded biased and just plain wrong! I'm REALLIE REALLIE SORRY! :X:(

Teaching was great today. I learnt lots from it... leaning on the people around us while giving them our support as well. I was leaning too much last time, maybe its time to be a support as well. And I love God's family BECAUSE we're connected by Christ which is the greatest and strongest bond ever! I shall remember that we are living for the audience of One always!!

I'm reallie excited for tmr! KOMPANY MOVIE AT MY HOUSE! :D Scream! WOOTS!

Saturday, October 21, 2006
Oct 22nd

Yesterday's Service was a blast!

I learnt so much from it, because it was reallie reallie so relevant! I couldn't help feeling God's prescence yesterday in full force! HC has 1 new convert!

I was touched by god so much yesterday! The Holy Spirit reallie moved in force yesterday! Felt so weak when God's word just flowed through... I could only shudder, didn't know whether to feel fear or amazement.

Speaking God's Word was scary but yet fulfilling, i love God!!

So happy coz i cleared up something with a friend yesterday =)!!!!!! HAHA!

The haze is going down and its gonna rain!

Tomorrow is fac outing!

haha post later!

Friday, October 20, 2006

The power of faith is truly indescribable. How many wars have been fought just for the sake of faith alone? Yet I cannot understand one thing. God created us and chose us as children of God to spread the gospel not to destroy people for the sake of enforcing it. Why? Why do people die for a cause that is unknown?

The gospel spreads through our hearts and our actions, by learning and presenting ourselves to be more Christ-like, we touch other lives. Why fight? Why did the Crusades take place which lead to killing and more killing? Killing another human makes you a murderer, does it not? How can you call yourself an acolyte of Christian faith if we've killed another a believer or not? Fighting to what cause?

The world is fighting now, not for a cause i understand. Terrorists bomb, countries retaliate by destroying the innocent. How many lives lost? How much do Man have to fight before they realise all this is aimless and uncalled for? Yet no one realises that a problem remains unsolved. What about people who are poor and uncared of in developing countries? They could be saved if you channeled all the money and efforts in war to this cause. Like Black eyed pea's "Where is the love?" pleads, Father help us from above.

Lord, you are El shaddai, help this world that you've created and work through your children Lord.

I can't say how many times in this week, i've cried out to you and you've answered and truly i can say that your are Jehovah Jireh, our provider =) My patience was unchecked yet you didn't let me go, my anger let loose, yet you held on to my peace.

Thank you, Lord for coming into my life. For without you, i can't imagine what life would be like.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Today was hilarious! We were playing cards at 78 class bench when GB played with my phone and took a picture which ignited much dispute for the next hour or so :P Fungg could only comment it to be, "mother ugly!" Muahahahhaa!

Spent the entire afternoon playing cards with Fungg, Junhong, Gb, Yongsheng, Minghong, Jiexun. It was quite fun but we were wasting our lives away coz we had nothing better to do :P

Was taught something interesting today for shepherding!

Focus on the positive not the negative, there is always hope and everything's not always as bad as it seems. When you focus on the silver lining, you can do so much more! Please GROW! Don't stagnate!!!! I will try harder and God please let me GROW AS WELL!!!

When we know we're inadequate, it just means we give God room to teach us and to grow us. When we give God our effort, He translates it into strength, peace, love and fruit.

" Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD."
- Psalm 27:14 (NIV)

Sunday, October 15, 2006
Oct 15th

Spent time with my family today, went out for lunch after i woke up at 11.

Today wasn't very exciting as all Sundays are. It gave me a lot of space to do things and to place priorities again.

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Everyone seems to be growing. Where have i gone? How far have i grown?
Where do i want to go?
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Post promos have been quite a let down with everyone busy over who knows what. I'm sort of tired myself, my body seems to be shutting down with the haze and all. I don't know what i was looking forward to during promos. I seem so lost after it.

Practice what you preach. Practice what you preach. The daily reminder.

I think i'll do QT now.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Oct 11.

Rehearsals felt good today. Despite waiting 5 hours.

Passed Geog, one step closer to promotion.

All these small little things, God has blessed me with. Yet in His plan, these may not be important at all.

What is the purpose i look for? To live life like it is the last day of my life? Maybe,

Almost all the time... i find that i don't really do things that i preach. A huge flaw of mine. I keep saying the wrong things as well. It makes me really wonder at times, what am i doing?

What i need to do:
1. Look forward
2. Know and truly practise what i preach
3. Cherishing people who really care about me.

Who are you to judge whether life is good or bad?
Isn't living good enough?

Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Oct 10

Leaders lead an aquarium life. Responsibility is the thought which slapped me back to reality again. When you slip up, you let faults go and whoever is following you, sees it. I have a responsibility to do my best. God, truly truly, you are the only one holding onto whoever i am or used to be. Responsibility's call slapped me hard and it showed me the road back to You, for that I'm thankful.

I just wanna run to East Coast Park and scream to the sea.

" GOD, I NEED YOU SO MUCH NOW!"

I've had an exhausting day. PW all the way till 2:30pm. GOOD JOB TO ALL MY PW MATES!! Tracy, Yeekai, Paula, Kenneth, reallie Thank God for you guys coz we finally cut our WR down to 2.9k words!! After that, went to see how Huiying and Leon were doing. We played a prank with Steph (ooops!) then i went off to the National Library. Saw Mr Tieu there marking physics papers. Did PW... managed to find two books and was sort of bored alone. So i photocopied stuff and went off early. Did i mention i got lost on my way to the National Library? I walked to Sim Lim and realised something was wrong. Then walked back and found the library. After that i left and got lost again! Then ended up at some place called shaw entertainment tower. When u thought 107 would lead me home, i took the opp direction and ended up in an ulu bus stop in the middle of nowhere. Then i took 70 which took me an hour to get home. In the end i reached home at 8, 2 hours later.

Totally exhausted.

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Blessings today: I found the books! I got sleep on the bus! And i will read PDL.

God created all of us for a purpose. Not man creating God for his own purpose, but instead WE are the VESSELS for his purpose. No one can explain how things were just right that man can exist. God loved us so much and created us and cared over us. He gave His son for us and spared man from destruction in the deluge and all that thru the ages. Never once could i doubt.

1 John 4:8
" God is Love."

Saturday, October 07, 2006
MAF!

Well just wanna post about promos and an outing with A13!! As well as MAF of course.

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That's the end of the promos!! No more papers! FOS was reallie a great lot of fun and we put up a GOOD FIGHT A13!!! That's all that matters... coz to our conscience we knew we played fair.

The outing with A13 was fun as we watched John Tucker Must Die, it was super funny and was better than Mean Girls! Everyone should go catch it. I was a lil on the low side on that day however, not reallie sad or anything just sorting out stuff and feeling quite solemn. Just needed to be quiet again. But thanks people for the concern :)

Guobin had a bad incident with... Miso soup. :P

It was great going out with A13 again :)
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Service was fun today, just sort of empty with only Huiying,Leon, Eugene, Suet, Samuel and me. The rest were involved with MAF. But it was great and we have a new AC brother!! We must arm ourselves with God's armour in order to fight his war!

MAF was a lil sad with like half the class involved. There wasn't the hype there was at campfire!! I reallie miss orientation now!!! I reallie hope at the next big event, we wouldn't be too involved and we can have fun!! Jumping singing and bonding! But i talked to some people around.

GOOD JOB TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO WORKED FOR MAF! Everyone looked sort of exhausted! have a good rest!

Feeling weird today coz i did some stuff heh!

The haze is getting bad! 150 PSI seriously i wish indonesia would stop razing themselves to the ground!

God you are our provider, Jehovah Jireh...
My life, i commit to you,
For your grace, mercy and strength,
And for you are our great Father in heaven...

Monday, October 02, 2006
Oct 02

Maths is screwed up badly.

Think i'm gonna U again.

But let's look forward to Geog tmr! And freedom!

God stopped by the bus stop today, and dropped past my mind to whisper, keep going.

No one is ever forsaken, no one is ever alone for He accepts us for who we are, and all our flaws.

Words can't say what Love can do,
I'll be there for you.

Who says true love is suicide...?

Back to Stopping at 2!

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Haven't updated in some time!

Its one day before maths! shucks...

Well two days till the end.

The geog paper was horrible arh:P I'm the last to blog about it but i was absolutely hysterical about it yea...

Well service yesterday was great. Self leadership meant a lot to me... it reminded me of my promise to Christ... What have i done? I ask myself so often. Now, I see the appropriate sacrifice... And what it truly means to live in Christ.

Happy 6th month to Fungg ahaha:P She suddenly said guess what day is today? We were all like... " err, children's day?" Yvonne drew her a birthday cake which was on the whole rather funny but somehow reminded me of our togetherness as a care group. Studied out with the CG which was very fun, especially out PC sessions with snapjack and bridge ahaha! I feel weirdly unworried but i know that i haven't practised enough.

Congrats yvonne on getting MAF EMCEE! You are our pride!!! Jiayou and we'll be there all the way with you!! :D

Looking forward to the end of promos!

Yea... Been sorting out my life recently. Other than studying, haven't been doing much. Rather than thinking, i would rather indulge myself in my music... to totally immerse myself in it... so that maybe i will think less, be less worrying. Like someone keeps telling me i think too much, i reallie think( oh crap...) dat i don't but as you can see i do.

I don't know what i'm living for sometimes but i know that I have Christ and i'm living for Him which is the least yet the most important thing of my life. With all my brothers and sisters in Christ, I really feel that i'm not alone on this road. I'm not the only one feeling overwhelmed with homework and feelings.

One very special sister i wanna thank is huiying my weird sotong-ish sister :P. For many many reasons :P

Well back to math!

God never abandons us, yet isn't it strange that people reject help when they need it the most? Well, its a question i'll keep in mind for life... :)