Saturday, December 30, 2006
Year 2006... A year never to be forgotten.... A year that changed my life.06A13:
I've never had a better class of wacky, fun and totally crazy people, every morning there'd be random commotion of all sorts of things. Guobin would almost always come in swearing somehow :P, Shum would always be the earliest, Shijia would start busying herself, Junhong will be sort of stoned... all the usual morning antics and conversation of our lively A13, never made any day boring in school. Even in lectures, there'd be golf matches :), message passing, random jokes that brightened up the day.
Still remember the memories from the 1st three months? The time where the school nearly sentenced A13 to separation. How we came together, to discuss petitions, strategies and all sorts of weird ideas to persuade them not to split up our class. There were tears on the day before they announced we would stay :) and i think that's how much we love our class. We even pranked Shum's birthday telling her that she had to split classes (kudos to Ry for the idea and Kar weng for the voice acting) :P. The amount of screaming heard on the day we were announced to stay, i think nearly broke the glass in the fish tank :P hahaha!
Our crazy class! Haha Jh, dun kill me! I posted your unglam photo but got mine oso ahhahahah!
There were no barriers between 2nd intake or 1st, we were just 13 as how 13 always is and always will be :) Sorry for the lack of photos tho :P
Next, really wanna acknowledge this band of brothers :P Da Kompany :D
I'm with this bunch of nutty people, coming up with lame jokes, "steaming" at every corner, eating tau huey breaks, going out to chill, laughing in auggie wong's lecture, playing golf in geog lect, they've been my buddies and it's weird coz we really only got to know each other this year. But we talk like, we've known each other for years haha, its just that their really worth my trust and they've stood by me all this time. One more year guys, let's hang in there and frenz forever really:)
Ares Dramafeste! Our class was heavily involved with tons of pple in chorale, cast and backstage. We even got SYF silver being chosen to represent HC :D All the late night practices left memories :D. It clashed with kenneth's and my birthday's and i remember, how we repeated our lines screaming into the central plaza! :D It was hard work, but reallie miss those times :)
Wanna thank my teammates too!!! haha the Judo nutty people who have been by me for YEARS! One more year left!!!
Last but DEFINITELY not least, the family of Christ whom i've accepted on the 15th of April 2006, I'll NEVER forget the day i said yes to Jesus and came into a caregroup which has changed over the months but always been my strongest pillar and really part of my life. My life has been so much more exciting with this group of people, made of all sorts of wacky, insane, loud, quiet, weird, zany lovers of Jesus!! I'm at least equally crazy :P The times we prayed, played, grew and cheered together for our Lord and Saviour :), I'll never forget this group! I'll never forget how during the promos, we would clamour on the benches at the amphitheatre or in the inner plaza, mugging together and laughing at each other. Eating noodles, saying grace and singing with a guitar playing nearby! How the cards of encouragement really pushed me to go on, the listening ears of my shepherd and my caregroup mates touched my heart when i needed someone to listen. This group of people taught me how and what was faith in Christ and I'm glad to say that i grew! :D And now that i know Jesus even better, I wanna give even more back to Him.
I wanna highlight this HC group which HAS GROWN SO MUCH!!! I still rmbr when there were only Samuel, Leon, Robert, Ryan, me, Tracy, Fungmin, Yvonne, Suet yi,Xiang Yu Cheryl and Qin Yan, when i just came in. After that we grew!!! To 26 as we stand now! We prayed for growth, we reached out and we brought new faces until we reached this place where we stand. ENCOUNTER and BREAKTHROUGH, two camps saw lives changed, saw this group change and love Jesus even more. The memories are priceless! I love CE2!!! :D There's a much longer road for us to walk. We need to have more of the discussions on who to bring as we did this year, in the next year! Glory to Glory AMEN?! :D
I've gone from new believer who doubted, to somewhere where i know Christ is my refuge and my rock. From someone who just stood there during praise and worship, to someone who has learnt that hopping for joy isn't something dumb but something that comes from the heart, the expression of my joy and surrender for Jesus and all that He has given, despite everything we did not deserve. He has given me my dear sheep, in my longest buddy Eugene and He's given me so much joy in my life I can never thank Him enough! Lord, THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH!
In This year, Jesus has brought me back, turned my life around 180 degrees! He's given me a wonderful 2006 and memories to never forget. 2007 is coming and i just wanna bid 2006 a fond goodbye because its been a year i made so many wonderful frenz and came back to the family of Christ which has cared for me so much.
Miss Dacks, Longkee and the rest a lot this year coz we haven't been able to catch up a lot and I really wanna thank you guys for being my friends so many years. We've lasted so long and gone so far, let's catch up really soon!!
Wanna thank a few people,
- my shep for always meeting my needs and being so patient with me :),
- Tracy for beinging me back,
- Fellow shep for always listening, always encouraging and serving as an inspiration as a shep :D (haha we got to know each other better after all),
- My sheep, for being a great sheep and FRIEND ALL THESE YEARS,
- BOONIE, my fellow crazy Monkey in class who's been listening and laughing with me and being a really good friend:),
- Junhong for always being the buddy to turn to, the walk-walk partner, tempted-by-food partner, advisor,listener and friend :),
- Huiying, for being the sotong she is and being a listener during tough times :),
- Yongsheng and Leon for being mugging and playing partners, all the floorball, squash, basketball, wadeva sai and the maths test mugging session which saved my life, thanks bros :)
- Jx, for being my going home partner :P
- Yvonne, for being the crazy nutty self she is and always making pple high lol
- Kat, the lil roasted dump, for always being there to share and listen on how God touched our lives as well as my spiritual doubts at times. Thanks loads dumpy :D
- Sf. no 1! For always being SF!! :D Hahhaha Thank you so much for teaching me so much this year!
Well 2006 has been great... now this is the last post of the year and HELLO 2007!!!!
Everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR :D
Do tag if you can hahahha
Friday, December 29, 2006
Faith is simple yet complicated. A paradox which even the best minds may not be able to grasp.It is simply believing, yet not fanatical and mindless following. It is knowing, despite not being certain of what is to come. It is doing what you know is your role that He is set for you, and knowing that it's the best for you.
Man distrusts simply because of security.
But you've shown me that by laying my security on you, even if i fall from the highest mountain in the world, you'll make the ground soft, push the obstacles aside and catch me in your gentle arms.
In pain, your whisper will always be there. Saying go on, and giving the quiet assurance that you'll are there watching and going through whatever i am going through.
Its not simple to have faith.
But its worth having it.
In fact, we don't even deserve having this blessing.
But He died on that cross for us to have it.
Mercy is not getting what we deserve.
Grace is getting what we do not deserve.
After 3 days of camp, just two camps left and it'll be over. The sweat and blood, the trainings just pushed you to every limit you can imagine. The muscle aches still linger, but the cheers and laughter after camp were welcoming and familiar, and the signal of a welcomed rest.
In the 3 days, it was more than time with teammates laughing and slogging away, although i really got to know them better and we really sat down to talk and play and shared more happy memories albeit very tough ones haha, more than pushing ourselves to every limit, but to me, in the tough times, it really let me learn perseverence and other things in life. It made me run to Him, when i pulled myself up after the throws which wore me down, the times when breathing was tough and we were all dying, just that bit more of energy, just to finish this camp. He was in this with me, till the end. I really felt it, I saw it now i'm home in one piece.
Shepherding today was enjoyable :D. Thank shepherd for the gifts x.x haha and the lesson learnt today. Humility. Something which i struggle to draw lines and place boundaries, to sort how much is humble, how much is demeaning yourself, and how much is letting pride climb all over you. Its a fine balance, its also a tough challenge. A constant check against pride because we cannot totally overcome pride. We sin all the time, but its humility which jerks your reins, and slaps you back to reality.
Without humility, what would we learn. Once we decide, we have enough, we stop there. That's our limit. The moment we say, that's it, we crumble. But if we continue knowing our imperfections , we strive even more and achieve even more. The world's greatest cellist plays his scales everyday even in his 80s, saying that there's always more to learn. So it is for us.
Once we give up or be satisfied, we stop altogether. When we become hungry and let greed take over, we overdo it. But what we simply need is our eyes on His meter, His measure and manual, and we serve it to the best we can, with humility and perseverence, anything is possible.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Heading off to training camp for 3 days.Today was the usual dreading day, to make things worse it was raining!!!
But Thank God for Jun Hong, haha He brightened my day LOADS! Thanks bro for the card and the pressie :D! Hahahhaa, CREAM PUFF!!! Let's go again someday!
Central E2 now HAS A BLOG! I AM PROUD TO PRESENT simplefaithCE2.blogspot.com at least for the moment. Until they change the name =X
I am proud of my CG and i love this bunch of people who brighten my day anyday any time.
Lord, guide me for you are the lamp unto my path.
I'm hungry for more... more than i had before...
Monday, December 25, 2006
Merry Christmas to everyone reading this :)!Happy birthday, Jesus!!! :D Our saviour and redeemer :)
Whatever He says, He does!
6 more for Jesus! :D
I'm just speechless at the things that He has done in my life this christmas and this walk in him.
I've seen prayers come true, hopes restored, cheers and celebration and the population of heaven :). Our dear father up there, HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D and THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH!
I love Central, for all that it is, and there's no place i'd rather be :D
Central Chalet was really crazy and fun! 25 hours without sleep with only matthew and me left surviving, not really zonked but still alive. :P We played cards, reaction games, mafia and talked the entire night, and Central E, I'm so proud of you guys :D! Haha, our skit was hilarious! Sweaty terminal disease, STD lol :D Thanks YS for being a sport and everyone for the ideas and making the skit such fun! :D I think it also really let me get to know and talk to people from other units too, like SANDY(Sui SUI!), Sinyee, Matthew etc :) and also our newcomers in the unit like Liping, Linton and Lijin. It also really made me feel the warmth from the district and truly allowed me to understand what Christmas meant and felt like! :D
On the second morning, everyone was zonked and all. Poor Robert had to get up barely an hour and a half later to go to work! When everyone was finally awake at around 10 plus-11, there was lots of praise and worship songs going around :P! In the corridor at first, then the HC pple were inside our room, just 8 of us snuggling in the blankets singing our own praise and worship songs from Fungg's and Eugene's phones. We were trying to OUTSING the people outside WAHAHHA! And they heard us and after awhile, EVERYONE STARTED CRAMPING INTO OUR ROOM LOL! Rayson brought in his guitar and amp and it was really fun singing together. When we sang you could feel the voices and the song really reaching up to our Father who we so dearly love :) It felt amazing. People from every kind of background, students in all rights from different schools, NS from camps all singing together for Him! :D
I really feel zonked now.
One thing i learnt today.
He loves us unconditionally with truly no expectations except to be more like Him and to serve with a spirit of excellence in WHATEVER we want to do. Thank you Father, for whispering your calming words to sooth the fires and lighting my path... Thank you for trusting and believing in me and for being there for me.
For we all know that God works for the good of those who love him and who have been called according to his purpose. :)
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Christmas used to be simply a time of presents, log cakes, watching lame shows on TV, eating dinner and playing games. Those random family gathering nights with us only knowing we're gathering for Christmas.What is Christmas? Why must we give? Why is it a festival of giving?
Who cared... we just needed to live life as it is and treat it as some festive holiday.
What changed on this day? Nothing except maybe a few presents which made you happier.
Then...
It all changed.
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Christmas cards... after all the writing for everyone on the list, i found myself really looking at everyone and the ways they've grown and the attributes which i admire and rely on sometimes and some of them really have impacted my life without me realising. God has really answered a lot of prayers through these people around me, my Caregroup CE2!!! CE1, CCGmates :D and all my leaders :D.
Every hurdle i stumbled out of foolishness and lack of faith, but instead of leaving me lying there, the took me out and washed me clean, and helped me on my way again. So i've stumbled a half million times and limped and walked on this path with God. I haven't regretted it, I never will.
When the Christmas cards went in and out, I really was quite amazed hahaha, so many people, so many gifts and cards and words and memories! When i got home, i just sat down and flipped through and i think my heart was warmed and really encouraged and strengthened, i felt warm and fuzzy enveloped in God's love through these people as well as all their care and concern!
I never had so many letters before. In fact, i dun think i've ever had letters for Christmas before. The experience was just... quite amazing and quite touching for me sometimes. You never know when another echoes your thoughts through that paper and just dat you've never voiced it out.
Haha, Thank God for YOU bringing me to Hope and the past is behind :) Hope you know who YOU are :D thank you for leading me and giving me this chance to change with God and I'm living the life that God changed by your simple but difficult action. God bless.
I think some of my cards were simply shorter than i wanted them to be coz of time. Start earlier next year.
But i wanted to let you guys know, thank you for changing my life.
This Christmas, i know what i'm living for, i know what christmas is all about and i know why we give.
For He gave His one and only Son to us.
The first Christmas as a Christian and i see so many lives changed. I see our group GROW! Which proves and shows that God answer our prayers 100% us and 100% Him :)
I pray for all our new believers, that they hold strong and that You'll be there for them in storms of objection or discouragement. For Lord you are our rock and in You, we CANNOT be shaken. Please hold them in Your arms...
To some who haven't received my cards, they're on the way x.x
My life spinned 180 degrees.
To one where i can smile with a lighter heart.
With a place and a family i could give my all to.
I'm content.
Family's starting to step in though. Things might be a bit messy but won't stop me.
Like in the SF convo :) Just Jiayou. Just Zham. God will provide. Live it out and things will be fine.
Thanks everyone... :)
I truly feel Hope :)
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Spent a wonderful time with the CG today at Mind's Cafe and i really felt happy and alive... laughing freely without a second thought and just being who i am, letting everything go for this time with these people whom i treasure.6 years as compared to the 8 months i've spent with these people.
Why is it not the same?
How can 8 months feel so much more real than all those years?
I don't know... maybe because I know that for once God loves me and these people accept me for who i am as how God does.
I think i wanna go on Hiatus soon... stop putting memories here for awhile but somewhere else.
I wanna be smiling at the dawn.
You lift me up to where You are when i turn to You. When these pressures seem too much, when the burdens burn my shoulders.
I truly don't know what to do... but to blindly trust in You. No matter what other people might say... I just want to trust... I just don't want to think so much but just to leave it to You. Please lead me...
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Christmas Card writing.Everyone wants a bit of your time... even when they often criticise and shout at you. They still want your time. You wonder why but the answer doesn't come to you. How do you live your life?
He is my Rock and My Refuge, He is my salvation and he lifts me up when i fall. He binds my wounds and heals my scars of the past. He gives comfort like the summer breeze.
It hurts when the shards of words slices into your back.
But there's nothing to it but to walk on like i always have.
Except this time i'm not walking alone.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
All God's testing has a purpose. Someday you will see the light. All He asks is that you trust in Him, walk by faith and not by sight.Thank you Shep. :) For everything.
Things are going by really fast and everyday is busy or according to my standards and schedule. But my homework is really rotting :( I think i've procrastinated very long.... And i'm feeling worried coz i'm getting left behind.
Though i'm happy living out this life.
Went street Evaxing today though it was raining ALLL DAY! Seriously all the rain makes me feel cold AND wet... But thank God we managed to get a few contacts :D It ws a great experiences and its really exciting when you get down to it :)
Fear only takes away. A step of faith and courage and your there, removing fear from the picture.
Walking on by faith and not by sight.
Did a bit of Xmas shopping for Sheep today coz he's going off soon to Aussieland i think. I hope its ok :)
My primary school classmates amaze me really. I really thank God for them :) Its amazing we still click and talk as if we've known each other forever although we haven't talked in years or months sometimes. Haha i miss them a lot :)
I leave it all to Your hands. Daddy, take the wheel and drive to wherever you want me to go. Because I trust in You.
Random pic from Breakthrough.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Spending a very normal day at home.... sitting in front of the comp plannign christmas shopping but staring at the failure at the same time -.-The lack of cash has totally limited the things that i can do and i have tons to do wahhahaha not to mention all the homework that's sitting in my bag waiting for me to DO THEM!
Maths....econs...Gp..... faints...
PT is back!!! Though we only did a bit today -.-, coz we played "netball". It was quite fun larh and it proves that our we can hardly shoot x.x
I hope that i can get out of the house to go to my second home soon. its called PS coz i go there so much x.x I need to do work and i'm posting this coz i'm lagging atm.... well post again later...
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Bewildered at this life i live.Confused about what people actually want to see in you.
At a loss of what to say at times.
Do we have to dance at a tune set by the world?
Can anyone judge someone else by his/her own limit?
Why can't i believe in something wholeheartedly but i must be limited to just be lukewarm?
I don't want to be lukewarm.
Why do you see me in this light?
But in all truths, I believe in what i believe. I act for what i want to fight for. And i have faith.
Because He sees me as His child and He loves me.
Is love not good enough for you?
Saturday, December 16, 2006
2 more for Jesus :)HC is now 20! :D
WELCOME SAMANTHA AND LIM MIAN!!
Haha, i bet Sotong is smiling like nuts now :P
Christmas service was greaT!!
Lots more to work for in the next week :)
I'm tired of all the talk of winning and losing.
With Jesus in my life, i have enough... more than enough and i've so much more important things to do with this life. Is life really just about winning and losing?
I don't think so.
Friday, December 15, 2006
The aura from BREAKTHROUGH IS STILL RUNNING IN MY VEINS!I'll post about camp later.
But God is good!
Everyone dun be discouraged, let's fight on!
Being happy is a blessing.
God has touched my life so very much!
Went out with Simon and Robert and their fren Chankeet! It was very fun coz i v long nvr go LANning alrdy! And we were laffing like nuts while playing CS! It was nice to get to know them better and it was nice to talk :)
And truly the passion to share is so great within everyone now!
Truly tell the world that He lives again :)
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
╟ `jon <06a13> [ Central E!] shanghai only got shanghai tan
[[君华]] junhua o6a13 . EZOAC <3 ophir (: says:
haha
╟ `jon <06a13> [ Central E!]
hang zhou v nice!
╟ `jon <06a13> [ Central E!]
haha
[[君华]] junhua o6a13 . EZOAC <3 ophir (: says:
must brg sunblk den
[[君华]] junhua o6a13 . EZOAC <3 ophir (: says:
u went b4??
╟ `jon <06a13> [ Central E!]
yea
[[君华]] junhua o6a13 . EZOAC <3 ophir (: says:
oooo
[[君华]] junhua o6a13 . EZOAC <3 ophir (: says:
nicenice
╟ `jon <06a13> [ Central E!]
lol bring sunblock!
╟ `jon <06a13> [ Central E!]
looool
[[君华]] junhua o6a13 . EZOAC <3 ophir (: says:
hahahah
╟ `jon <06a13> [ Central E!]
at nite put sunblock and go for moon tan
[[君华]] junhua o6a13 . EZOAC <3 ophir (: says:
nono
[[君华]] junhua o6a13 . EZOAC <3 ophir (: says:
the shanghai tan
O.o :D
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Breakthrough camp!!! In One day! I'm just excited to be going for the camp and i miss it so much! All the memories from Encounter! flowing back to me and i'm just excited! More of God's word, more fellowship, more experiences, more memories!!!Another thing is that so many things have happened since the last camp when i was a new believer... but there are still so many faults in me. In this camp, i wanna pray that i will go nearer to God and experience God. I dun know how to explain or express like how this experience will be like but i know that it'll be an experience i will cherish as it is part of this walk with my Father :)
In this camp, i want to submit my flaws to God and learn and hunger more for His word. We will be refreshed and work even harder for His kingdom. I will experience BREAKTHROUGHS in this camp because i know that God will touch all of our hearts and let us go even further in Him!!
BREAKTHROUGH CAMP 2006 in 1 DAY!
See you in 3 days time.
I've noticed it myself.
Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.
Who are you... what do you want from me?
I notice it but things just get out of control in situations like that.
God i submit this to you. I really want to change but i don't really know how.
Its eating away more than i know.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
The price of pride.The price of love.
A life time spent .
Are you going to look back and regret?
Are you going to say, Yes I've done my best, in front of Him?
In charge of another's life, I'm so afraid.
Afraid i'll screw up and it affects another's path.
Afraid i won't be able to serve all the way with him or all these people till the end.
But in all these fears, i have You.
In You, i find my strength, I find my hope.
In You, i do this in faith.
For You are my truth, my WAY and my Life.
For you are my Lord Jesus Christ.
Of Faith, Hope and Love, Love is the most important.
haha the words i long to say, i can't say. isn't it ironical? the way i feel, i can't express. Not ready. Not ready. Waiting for Your signal. I think of YOU. irrational.
He spoke to her in a harsh manner, "Don't you know, young lady, when you give someone a present there's supposed to be something inside the package?"
The little girl looked up at him with tears in her eyes and said, "Oh, Daddy, it's not empty. I blew kisses into it until it was full."
The father was crushed. He fell on his knees and put his arms around his little girl, and he begged her to forgive him for his unnecessary anger.An accident took the life of the child only a short time later and it is told that the father kept that gold box by his bed for all the years of his life. And whenever he was discouraged or faced difficult problems he would open the box and take out an imaginary kiss and remember the love of the child who had put it there.
In a very real sense, each of us as human beings have been given a golden box filled with unconditional love and kisses from our children, family, friends and God. There is no more precious possession anyone could hold. Friends are gifts from God who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly. Think positive
and act.
Beautiful story...
Lord, my father in heaven, thank You for Your everlasting, unfailing and PERFECT love!
All things change.... but You never change.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Sleepover at Jiexun's was quite fun ^^ but caused me to only get sicker x.x haha ran a fever in the afternoon, and the cough incessantly bugs me. Sleeping so much in the afternoon did a lot of good but still sick enough to feel dizzy... Having no one around the house is quite weird haha and its tough in this period of time. I just prayed to God and let Him heal me and i know that i'll slowly but surely heal :).Last night, we hit my house first, to watch miscelleneous shows that the guys wanted to watch. There was a lot of piano and guitar going on while waiting for samuel and Leon to arrive :D. After a short and close crisis, we decided to move over to Jx's first and wait for Sam and Leon there. His house was huge! :D As we flipped channels, while YS was on the phone with a kid :P, we were just lazing and messing around till the rest arrived. When everyone was there, mass havoc started :P! Lots of lame jokes were told, like Eugene's face printed on KFC boxes and taking an "animal" video, it was hilarious and was fun as my first ever sleepover (weird lol :)). There was more piano playing and jamming with 3 guitars in Jx's room and after that, we promptly started with "pillow" fights :P We used the Ophir sleeping mats and started whacking randomly :P Until YS and Samuel were too bored and invented a game. We would each take a number and roll the dice. Whose ever number appeared would have to lie down and get whacked, which was hilarious because there was a lot of shouting and laughing :P. I picked 4 at first, then they found out that the dice ( which was like a scrabble dice or sth) had 2 4's x.x Thanks! No wonder every other turn i was whacked :P. After that to make it fair, we took a letter instead ( which was inscribed on the dice together with the number), and we continued. And no one could roll leon's letter which was a D! Then, we all altered the rules and made sure a D came out and everyone just went mad :P Poor Leonzy.
After that, we settled down with sorethroats and coughs after all the shouting and laughing to watch american pie. Which was funny in a crude way, but doesn't stop it from being lame :P Sam promptly fell asleep about half an hour into the show and woke up for the next show which was "A walk to remember" which most of everyone else fell asleep watching, because it was so slow. :P
Somehow, we all were up by 10 this morning, ruffled by 2-4 hours of sleep and everyone was just lagging around. And after marching off for a late breakfast, everyone went home to take a good rest :D
I crashed the entire afternoon coz of the sickness but it was really worth it. I think the sleepover really helped to gel the CG guys closer together too and get to know each other a lil better and it was great!
The first ever sleepover with CG pple :D
A few pictures for viewing :D
Before Sam and Leon arrived.
Everyone cramping into Jx's room, prepping for movie.