Monday, May 28, 2007

Today was some crazy day.

I was late for training, well a bit late only but still... Was absolutely tired out after that and was hoping for a break in the afternoon but lo and behold there were piano lessons when my teacher's message came in at about 12 that lessons were at 330.

At that period of time, I was just totally zonked out and a lil grumped out i guess, so i dragged myself home for a 15 min lunch and packed and zoomed out of the house again. And for the first few times, I think i was pretty pissed during piano class. It definitely wasn't the right emotion to be in but i was partially zonked, partially despairing, partially angry. I couldn't concentrate on whatever iwas playing, I couldn't play anything properly even though i knew the notes and i knew what to play. I just couldn't move and i could only repeat scale i had to play to myself twice before pressing the correct note. Stumbling too. I'm sorry i was a lil pissed tho because i shouldn't have been :(. But it felt quite horrendous then...

When i got out of class, I prayed on the way to dhoby, i was past the edge, zoned out and totally unsure of how i was going to cope with prac and I just prayed that He would sustain me and let me just put my heart into it even with the untimely sore throat. Reached dhoby and mugged a bit of SATS with Tracy and Fungg before going on for prac at 7.

And it was a blessing. Such a huge blessing :) A big THANK YOU to the prac people :) coz it was fun and quite a crazy time, just singing our stuff and figuring out harmonies :P Which was a bit havocky :D but crazy nonetheless. Just energized by all the fun people and encouraged by our new DL :P ( thanks for the drinks :P). Had a really nice talk with song partner, Melvin and i really thank God for all the little things and people that He put around me today. The way He saw me through all things, and answering the many random prayers all of these days.

Today's post is a bit of a break of tradition haha just felt just narrating everything that went on today. Because the extreme feelings are sorta undescribable and i just can't explain how good God is, not simply because of what He does, not simply for His blessings but simply because He is who He is, our Creator, our Healer, and Our everloving Father.

Just that simple.

Thank you for putting obstacles in my life.
Thank you for seeing me through all the random tough times.
Thank you for seeing past my flaws.
Thank you for being faithful to me.
Thank you for forgiving me.
Thank you for putting me above all else.
Thank you for giving.
Thank you for sacrificing.
Thank you for loving me :)

Love you, Jesus :)