Friday, March 28, 2008

Just another hour or so to the SMU Sch of social sciences interview. Kinda nervous but sort of excited (: I guess all the interview skills i've picked up in Chinese high to hwachong would come into play now.(: Its kinda exciting for finally put into practice some skills which you've learnt time and time again but never put into use.

Finally the week ends and its an end of sitting in the training shed at the school of Ammo. Where lessons are somehow painfully self studied and the long hours under that training shed, slowly but surely draining away my mental stamina. Somehow stoning and thinking takes a lot out of you and after a day, your mind is suffering some sort of excruciating mental fatigue. Odd that when doing nothing, i can feel this way. Staying in takes away your freedom, but staying out takes away your time and energy. Oh well, all things have its pros and cons (:

I pray real hard that i'll be able to get a good posting after 3 weeks, so that i can finally finalize the courses that i can take. There's nothing more enjoyable than picking up new skills i realize. Rotting for too long makes you insanely stagnant, where you aren't improving or learning anything. Man is such a strange creature. Whatever you don't have you would want it... only until you have it. When i had sch, studying was a pain. But now, learning and studying seems more interesting than wasting my life away. Every skill i pick up opens a new door, to new people, to doors where i can reach out to more lives. Classes or work places or languages which reach out to fallen people, can be used by my beloved Maker (:

Its finally saturday and it feels really odd not to have service today coz its tmr. But i'm still excited for caregroup today! coz i get to see all my brothers (:

The flux of activity and changes right now unsettles me but i know that wherever i go, i'm safe in the arms of Jesus (:

My life is Yours, make me accountable for it-- Just like Hosea who made his life solely Yours.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

When i struggle, i know You are always there watching over me.

Overcoming this with You is much easier.
The heavy burden of weariness, You have always borne it with me.

Thank you Lord

Saturday, March 22, 2008

I'm at another crossroad of my life.

The thing about crossroads is that you scratch your head on which is the way to turn. An extremely mind-boggling decision for a direction muddled youth like me. Countless times of " Oops wrong way" later, i come back to the crossroad to realize that there was a sign here all along. Just that i was too busy making my own decision.

Sometimes all i need to do is to look out for that sign.
Sometimes all i need to do is to look to God.

Step.
Step.
Step.

There's the next sign.

Step.
Step.
Step.

OH there it is.

So finding my direction was this easy?

All i need to do is to trust.
Trust in You my God who has brought my through blocks and promos, tears of joy and tears of failure, high fevers, flus, loneliness and the different little inconsequential things which haunt my dark human heart.
But now i just want to live in your light and joy.

Thank you

Friday, March 21, 2008

Learning is something which really fills me up.
Learnt to play keyboard with my piano a little today from Hanyang and i really really think that its an amazing skill to learn (:, especially when it displays your emotions and it can lead others into God's presence. As jiehui always encourages us, "go and pick up skills" i really sense a need for that because the more skills i pick up, the more ways i can serve.

Another thing which tips water into my flask is reaching out to other people's lives.
Today's BBQ event was great because we got to know Jx's and Robert's friends which was really interesting. I also got to know Ding Chuen better and its really good to hear another person's story and to learn from it or to touch it in certain ways.
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Its sad when you see your friends in pain and nothing you say will help them.
When you know their in trouble but they lock it up within.
The helplessness gets worse when they shut the door in your face.

But i know God that prayers will be heard and that you'll send your help from above.
Deliver them from their troubles and provide for them in their need.
Heal them from their hurts and give them hope.
Because in the end, i hope they turn to You and remember that they need You.

P.S I'm in a broody mood today (: And its good because i haven't been in the long time. I suppose you can tell from the randomness of htis post. I shall post again hopefully.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Just to sweep some dust of this blog.

Block leave has started and BMT felt like just a blink of an eye.
All the saikang, field camps, live range and all the miscellaneous stuff.
Now things are in motion again...

Its the little things in life that bring joy. I really love the simple brotherly love that this caregroup shares. Although we didn't have a lot of time together, but these people who have given time into this group are v treasured by me (: because they really have warmed my heart.

Lesson learnt from today. Everything requires a little wisdom and foresight (:

Easter is coming and its a v special season for me (:
Because someone gave and never asked in return (:

Thank You
<3 Cale

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Happy Birthday Fungmin! (:

May God bless you greatly in the days to come and thank you for giving into my life (: Take care of yourself and enjoy being 19! :P

Life has been challenging with a lot of change taking place, new people, new places, new things to adapt to. But through it all i realise one thing, that God never changes. He's always the same God, always to God who comforts me when i'm afraid and worried, always the same God who gives me wisdom in times of need, who gives me hope when i have none. Now i think i understand a bit more about leaning on God, that everything we go through comes with a purpose. Our treasures will come when we finally see it through (:

Don't let surroundings change you entirely but bring change to your surroundings at the same time.

Camps for Jesus!

God, i love you (: