Saturday, February 16, 2008

Love and grace.

Grace is underserved blessings or kindness that is given. But we often overlook these blessings, for example how our parents slog to feed us everyday, or how we're granted beds to sleep on. We take them for granted. Those are mmm i would say simplified examples. But i realised that the joy of waking up everyday, of simply being able to talk to God, of simply finding times to sing to God is really God's grace to me. I thank God that He's helping me everyday to slowly find my place in camp, to slowly touch people's lives around me. I also thank God for a guitar and his prescence as i sing to him, coz there's nothing more enjoyable than singing to God (: It really fills my heart with a peace and joy which cannot be replaced(:

Love is a word talked about by many. But love is so easy to take but so difficult to give. So easily talked about. Some treat it as a prize, others like a conquest, some treat it as a temporary comfort, others seek it to satisfy a yearning in their hearts. But love is not about taking. But Love is giving. To be patient. To never be rude. To always trust. Always persevere. To be kind. To be caring. To be hopeful. To be forgiving. And it never fails. The truth is love is given and not something to be obtained. I'll never forget why i seek to learn to truly love others.
Its simply because you gave it to me first, especially when i needed it the most.

When i was blind, you found me,
when i was caught, you set me free,
Hanging onto the mercy that you gave me
I'll sing forever of the way you gave me
this life to live.

I wanna sing holy Saviour,
Great redeemer,
Lord of all the earth,
Humble hearler,
Magnificent Father,
I'll sing of your love forever.

In Tribute to my Father in Heaven, who has lead me so often when i was blind, who had given me light when i was in darkness. I just want to give everything i have to walk with you everyday (: Because there is really nothing that is this satisfying or this meaningful. Sometimes i think that i have lost small bits of me, but i realised that God i slowly moulding me and letting me see the rough edges in my soul. I'm unsure whether i'll make it, but in all things there is always a choice, to focus on your Giant( your problem) or on Your God. Which G would you choose? I'd definitely bet on my Provider.

thank you for always seeing me through.

"i'll always be with you "
Your words ever echo in my heart (:

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Finally back from Pulau tekong, must say that first bookout really feels good.

I guess life on the island is really different. Someone once said that when you first book out you look at the world differently and it perfectly true at least for me. You'd realise how much freedom that we're actually given and how important friends and family are to you. You really appreciate how much that they've given you as well. Its a very chastening experience and you realise that the world ain't so simple.

I really wanna thank God for blessing me with Simon to be in my company because through these two weeks although its through that Pes C life is not so hiong as Pes A and B but i guess we do face challenges, these challenges may also be slightly different than usual. But having a brother to keep you accountable and being a prescence which you can count on in camp really helps. I also wanna thank God for being such a beautiful creator (: Whenever i was weary and tired of everything, i'd look up into the sky. The day sky filled with fluffy clouds which were really beautiful, the azure sky just allowed me to take my mind off all the troubles and schedules but just take a little time off everything.

There was this one experience which really touched me. There was one night where i was so tired and frustrated with certain things in camp. I took a breath of fresh air on the corridor and said a small prayer for help and for God to sustain me. And in the sky just in front of me was a star blazing brightly. It just shone in the middle of all the stars in the sky and i was just reminded of God that his grace and prescence would be sufficient for me and it simply made me smile. (:

The past couple of weeks have made me rethink my perspectives and i'm worried about certain changes in me. But i know that in God i will overcome them with Him, I will look forward and will walk with Him through it all (:

Thank You God (: for always being my provider, Healer, Father and Friend.
How could i live without you.

Joyful fact 1: I CAN GO FOR SERVICE THIS WEEK!!!!!! (: SATURDAY HERE I COME! (:

<3 Cale