Thursday, November 29, 2007

HCCG is _______, love beyond words.

God created man and said that it was good.
God created friends they were good.
God created this caregroup and He gave me one of the greatest gifts ever.

Today we said goodbye once.
But never will be wonder too far if we stay with the same heart and the same person who brought us together.
We will always meet till eternity, always stand by each other in prayer.

Thank you for the memories.
Thank you for the love.
Thank you for all the encouraging words.
Thank you for giving me hope when i had none.
Thank you for showing me that life is so colourful and cheerful each day that whenever i am with you guys, i couldn't get too far down.

I know someday i'll look back on this day.
But this is one thing i will say,
" That God made a way,
through these people in these days"

I will miss you all awfully.
Thank you and God bless all of you=)

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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

When your guilt takes over, what do you do?

Turn to You

Monday, November 26, 2007

Its over!

Sunday, November 25, 2007

God you make me smile in ways i'd never think of :)

Saturday, November 24, 2007

A thousand memories.( or more...)
Definitely an exciting future.

But for now just a bit more flooding of the past. Just 2 years.

( The most painful thing is not about walking away, but is walking away without you realizing at the end what i truly wanted to do. In the end, did it matter to you? Or was it just another ignorable problem?)

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Mad Girl's Love Song
By Sylvia Plath

"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in;
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you betwitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)"

I thought of this poem all of a sudden.
I think i made you up inside my head.
Yeah, i really think maybe i did.
Maybe i'm a lil cranky.
Or maybe just a little _________.

It brings back lots of memories :)
and no i dun think that when i shut my eyes all the world drops dead.
Coz when it happens then I'll have You by my side.

The Word is Alive by Casting Crowns

Looking out from His throne
The Father of light and of men
Chose to make Himself known
And show us the way back to him

Speaking wisdom and truth
Into the hearts of peasants and Kings
He began to unveil
The Word that would change the course of all things

With eyes wide open all would see

The Word is alive
And it cuts like a sword through darkness
With a message of life to the hopeless and the frail
Breathing life into all who believe

The Word is alive
And the world and its glories will fade
But His truth it will not pass away
It remains yesterday and forever the same
The Word is alive

Simple strokes on a page
Eternity's secrets revealed
Carried on from age to age
It speaks truth to us even still

As the rain falls from heaven
Feeds the earth before it returns
Lord, let your Word fall on us
And bring forth the fruit you deserve

With a message of life to the hopeless and the frail.

This song has captured my heart on the long walks home, on the transport times, because of those lines, i'm reminded on the long walks down the hill to my home, that there is hope against all hope, love in a cruel world, help when we are weak.
People ask why. Maybe it seems like a simple dreamscape. It looks like a utopia. Where does help come for free? How can it be? It all sounds like words from a naive child watching the world from a narrowed perspective.

Maybe i am naive. Maybe i have a narrowed perspective. Maybe i haven't been through starvation, droughts, famine, natural disasters, loss of loved ones and so much more.
But God promised it, Jesus sealed it and the Spirit delivered it. I pray that someday there may come a day where we will make an impact to the world such that it changes and peace will truly reign. This is not a "world peace" declaration, just thoughts that ran through my mind.

I think too much.
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1. Lit is soon.
2. Caregroup is tmr.:)
3. Poe, Prospero and the pushy geraldine awaits.
4. I wish I didn't have this annoying flu
5. Want to go to the beach
6. want to swim and run
7. 1800 calorie diet (which is failing lol)
8. A's are ending soon!
9. Desktop TD
10. Dec Camp! :)

Well that sums up the current thoughts :)

Friday, November 16, 2007

Learning from experiences everytime we stumble. That's the only way we can improve right?
(: I guess failures are not always bad coz there always this little voice telling me that next time this happens this is not one route i wanna take. every step to wards You counts!

nothing in this world is as beautiful as You.

The swim at Jx's house was wonderfully enjoyable and fun:) Nothing like the physical exertion of lapping in the pool then plopping ourselves in a Jacuzzi. Just wanna dedicate this post to Jx for always being a great friend despite all my flaws >< which definitely frustrates. A big THANKYOU! :D

ESS today and VISITORS :D looking forward to it! I haven't had this feeling in a long time being free (or slightly more free) from the exams! Just a bit more space to breathe and think of what i wanna do.

I think for once in my life i have a dream that is larger than usual which makes me a bit excited but at the same time, i've been wondering of the feasibility. I guess somehow it'll work out, somehow i'll be able to get there only if you'll will me to :) Not my will but yours be done.

The fraility of relationships. Even in a family or a marriage. The thought is pretty saddening.
Pray, pray and pray. For prayer is the channel where mountains are moved and hearts are restored.

I guess somethings never change, you are one of those things.

The haphazard nature of my posts are just my way of summarising a day of thoughts and happenings. But that's just me :)

You capture my heart with this love.
Cale :)

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

The sinking feeling in my heart.
Complacency.
Pain.
Move on.

HOPE is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words,
And never stops at all,
And sweetest in the gale is heard;	5
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.
I ’ve heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;	10
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.

Never has He asked a thing from me.
Just wanna trust in you.
Coz you were my hope, the one who never stopped comforting, the one who never stopped whispering.

Cale

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

God does not call the Qualified....

He Qulifies the called.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

give thanks with a grateful heart
give thanks to the holy one,
give thanks for he has given,
Jesus Christ His son.

Now let the weak say, " I am strong"
Let the poor say, " I am rich"
Because of what the Lord has done for us.
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More of You, less of me.

The morning sun gives new life,
the glittering stars make a path at night,
a tapestry of a thousand strands,
simply by a maker's hand.

A God that guides my hand, a God that sees my laughter, my tears, my embarassment, my sorrows, my hopes, my fears, my nervousness, my blushes, my sins, my flaws, my pains, my comforts, my prayers, my wants and my needs. That is the God who loves me for a reason that i cannot fathom but loves me all the same. All i can remember are the verses of this song to describe this feeling...

You are new every morning,
New every morning.
Great is thy faithfulness oh Lord,
Great is thy faithfulness :).

I thank you for this day with a company that indispensible, an odd combination and a motley band of people like your people always are, but you made the best out of everything :) Against all hope i hope, that in big problems come big miracles. I'm definitely not prepared for the week ahead. But may you guide my hand, may what i've done be a tool for you to guide this hand. I just trust simply and joyfully in you. For there is nothing like facing challenges with joy.

Out of the comfort zone. But with the joy of my heart burning.
I thank you and love you. :)

Cale.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Big problem, big miracle.
Those were the four words that shone on my note book today.
They stood out like giants around clusters of other words staring back at me after i've scribbled them down.
I looked and smiled.

Econs is next wk x.x, all the work up to now, counts to this moment. I still dunno if i have it in me, but damn straight am i going to try for that elusive A, even tho the notion of passing has eluded me totally in my hwachong life. :) The Duchess and Guide must be smirking at me now, not starting on them earlier is taking a toll on me, i'm sure they won't mind if i don't join either of their respective plights :P

Eureka 7. Go look it up if you have the time :)

Ironies happen so often in our lives that when i look at Raju, his life doesn't seem too far fetched.

All in your hands
just to have faith in you :)
Cale

Thursday, November 08, 2007

The simple God-sent joys.
Thank you all for making today so simple, enjoyable and laughter filled :)
Even though i crashed study grp :P
The first time i ate thai express!

my ipod nearly died on me today!
I reached home and i couldn't turn it on x.x
I tried resetting it by trying to hold the menu and center button with one thumb
I tried plugging it into my comp
it didn't work
then i prayed and its ALIVE! HAHAHA!
I just thank God that i saw the site which said press the menu and center button together and i tried it with two thumbs :P

I visited Raju today at Malgudi and this time it wasn't just a story. I realised how well human emotions were deeply etched and depicted as the story progressed, when the story was slowly narrated more and more by Raju in his obsessive trance for Rosie. But the most powerful thing of the novel is that it depicted so powerfully the emotions of pride, of obsession so subtlely and showed the vunerability of man to the things around him. It struck me and left me pondering.

The Guide wasn't just another text after all.

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

5 papers left and counting.

We're nearly half done and the Awful A's is going to climax pretty soon next week. Oh well.

But College life is coming to an end too. No more wings or benches, no more rooftops or library, no more mass festivals and crazy school life, a pretty emo thought after 2 years in a school where unforgettable memories were forged :)

Its scary to think that i've lost what i've learnt in the past 1 year in a mere span of 3 months. Now i've got to find it all back. Pick up the pieces and move on.

Just wanna trust in You.

Saturday, November 03, 2007

I'm really absent minded. If you know me, i'm the most absent minded idiot in the whole world. I lost another ez link card today sigh... but well... i'll have a fair chance to start being organised soon. Once i dump all my worksheets :)

The feelings i once felt. The questions that once were asked. The thoughts that flashed by. Why did i go into a period where did the desire burn out? Isn't this precisely the thing that i wanted to do? Isn't this where i want to head? I know now and there's no time to lose.

God, help me step towards the thing that i fear most, and step away from the thing that i fear to become the most. I trust solely in You alone.

Jesus loves you
<3 Cale :)

Friday, November 02, 2007

it is in the toughest times that people turn away from their faith but where to?

Thursday, November 01, 2007

" When our people have understood it, they will only have understood it if they know the claim is exclusive. There is no compromise. We have to say it lovingly, we have to say it gently but truth by definition cannot include everything if it includes everything, there no such thing as falsehood. If there's no such thing as falsehood, there no such thing as truth."
- Quote R.Zacharias

The nature of exclusivity is natural to truth. If there is a grey area, then how can truth be powerful or be called a truth? Where is the value of truth?

He who is molded is bent against his will and his comfort, stretching and straining but never breaking. That is how transformation takes place. When a piece of metal is molded, it is dipped in a furnace of flames a few thousand degrees Celsius, so that it softens to be molded. A piece of clay has to be spun hundreds of rounds for a potter who has to spend hours labouring on it to mold it into a shape that is pleasing to the eye. It is the inevitable part of change.

Change definitely may not always be good, but change gives you the option of being better. But eventually the options are placed before you, do you make the right decision or the decision you desire?

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Study session today with Jx and Lee yang was fun :) We were rather productive and it felt simply comfortable and peaceful! a big thank you to my study partners! :)

math in one day. I dunno whether to be worried or excited. All the work that has been poured into saving my math in 3 months, i hope that it'll pay off. :)

All my worries have more or less been cleared up, living more joyful days despite the onset of A's, despite the screw-ups yet there's calm, i just wanna thank God for all these simple things that He has granted me and blessed me with :).

Thank you for being faithful even when i've failed and really reminding me that in the most difficult of times, there is always someone who i can complain and talk to.

Just 24 more days away to freedom.

Cale.