Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Your Aura is Yellow

You're a deeply happy and content person, and you enjoy sharing your cheer with others. While you may seem like a simple optimist, there is a lot of thinking going on inside you. The purpose of your life: bringing joy and a better life to others Famous yellows include: Conan O'Brien, Jenny Mccarthy, Jim Carrey Careers for you to try: Athlete, Actor, Yoga Instructor

You Are a Chocolate Cake

Fun, comforting, and friendly. You are a true classic, and while you're not super cutting edge, you're high quality. People love your company - and have even been known to get addicted to you.

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

The rain is particularly comfortable tonight. Fits my mood.

Back to work...

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Straying into areas where i don't want to go into.

Stay happy :)

But sometimes its pretty tiring to keep going and going. Can't wait for thursday.

Just dunno what to do.

Only can just hang in there.

Yep.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Running away. Dunno whether its the right way to do it but seems like the easiest way to avoid weird questions. or objections.

I just wanna love you all my life. So i wanna make this decision. It may seem simple for others but its different for me i guess. It'll affect my whole life. It'll affect things at home if it gets out. But You are definitely worth it. So i'm gonna make it. Although i don't deny i feel afraid. But I just want to love You. Coz its what's important.

A big THANK YOU to Da kompany for the cap :P hahahhaa although i was being difficult saying i dun wear caps, but the beautiful cap takes a place in the special presents collection! Thank you all so much! I shall wear it often :P :D Thanks for making my day :)

I remember the times when i was afraid of singing worship songs, saying that pledging my soul and life to love You for all eternity sounded to scary because it sounded like i was giving everything away. But now its so different. Because it isn't giving everything away but entrusting it to You so that you can bless me even more, give me even more joy as i choose to spend all my time with You. You gave me all the wonderful friends around me who have never failed to make me smile and feel comfortable. Even in tough times, I'll lean on You. Because i know you've got my back.

All of you out there reading this, thank you for being there for me. Thank you for making me smile, especially my dear CG and 06a13, because every smile spurs me forward. Don't know what i'd do without you guys.

Stuff at home is getting me all bothered and sometimes its a trouble struggling with it alone, trying to cap the lid on temper, trying to keep it going because its so frustrating but i dun wanna get into unnecessary trouble because i wanna respect them. Becoz He taught me how. But when i am with you guys (you know who you are), I just smile and laugh like i always can do. And i thank God for you guys, and I really appreciate it because I can keep laughing.

Rejoice and rejoice in the day the Lord has made :)

There's nothing to trouble about, all we can do is try harder, work harder, live life, know that He's got my back, keep moving forward, don't look back, smile, smile and smile even more because frowning ain't gonna help. Go jonny go, I can do this :)

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Haven't been online for days throughout chinese new year coz of a locked internet due to problems not pertaining to any technological problems what so ever.

New years has been boring and horrible, stuck at home or visiting and sleeping through such visits. Nothing really changes and all i can say is new year was a door to more friction to conflicts than ever. I miss school, my class and my caregroup!!! I think i'm suffering withdrawal symptoms x.x haha coz i wanna cherish every moment with these people... after all we only have less than a year left.

Thank God for being with me through New year's, its been difficult but He's been there and teaching me so many things :P By God's grace, I live. And He's guided me through His paths without fail and reminded me of patience. Thank you for granting me Your peace and being there for me to talk to when i needed You the most. You are my One and Only :)

I don't know why you have to act like that. Your more like a kid than I am. You said i was arrogant, why don't you look in the mirror? So many times i wanted to just walk out. You remind me of why I'm so tired and afraid of spending time with you guys. Because you keep criticizing others and you don't realise that your the one who's wrong. Everytime you do, I stay aside not wanting to have any part of it, instead you get angry. I'm seriously tired of you.

Thank God for also making yesterdays mini CG outing a success :D Minds cafe!!! Forgot to take photos :P Was there with Shaun, Liping, Kenny, Suet and a guest, Junhong hahahhaa :P! It was fun just laughing and playing lame games and it really was a reprieve in the midst of the boring New year's.

ARES BURNED THE DANCE FLOOR :P

I'm still watching the video:P

Gah, I have a fever on the day we're supposed to go back to dear school. So tired. Hope everyone's doing ok in school now oh wells :)

Friday, February 16, 2007

The greatest gift made by my shepherd and Robbie :P

And of course all the messages, CE2 wrote which has touched my heart :)

New year service! :D We're in the center ROW!


Me and boonsies :D

Me and dance partner! until jeriel and hongwei decided to crash :P

Bearry!

Hongling with the two bodyguards :P


I'll post later more in detail. Feeling weirdly zoned out today :) yep let the pictures speak for themselves.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Valentine's :) Haha sorry to everyone coz i didn't finish any gifts! Arghhh except A/M which i was quite anxious to give out hahaa! Yep! I promise to try to finish up the V day gifts belatedly. (hopefully)

Sorry Huiying for today >.< But happy v day :)

Finally 18 years old. Awfully nostalgic, triggering thoughts and memories. But 18 is a year I'll never forget because...

1. I spent it with all these people around me! Treasuring this birthday with A13 so much... hahaha more than you can ever imagine.

2. All the well wishes that were given by EVERYONE! With all the unexpected well wishes from old friends! I think that's what touched my heart most today... wasn't the gifts, wasn't all the fun and laughter, it was just the simple " Happy birthday" and the smile :) Yeah... Thank you ALL for remembering! Kuan Fu, Lee xinying, people who i never thought would remember!!! Omygosh, i was so touched when LXY smsed haha! Its been 2 years since we last exchanged a word! Friends always huh :) Dacks for the phonecall!!! I was happy to pick up that phonecall haha v heartwarming :) and Xiangg for the phonecall just to say Happy birthday! Thank you!!! Of course not forgetting everyone who was wishing me online, like Shijie last night and Jer and Junhong and so many others and Oli and JH and the rest for spamming me when i reached bench in the morning! I really felt loved and I really really really will remember it for a long long long long long time! :D Raphael and Abby, thanks for the messages :D
my teammates for all the lame remarks and messages too!!! I like eggs :P HAHHAA

3. Of course the gifts too :D Carl and Velden for the chicken thighs (altho it looked quite weird and gross HAHAHA:P) The cookies from Lee Yang, Oli/JH, Fungg, Yvonne. Roasted dump's bear!!!! which was super cute hahah Thanks dumpy! :D

4. my mortal,Jess :P Haha i wanna single out this mortal because she's been brightening up my days! Haha so glad i have such a wonderful mortal! She gave me a huge Sotong soft toy!! :D and a back massager sotong! Haha which was really sweet! :D The card was beautiful too! :D I was just too happy when i got the gift! I'm really touched and I feel guilty coz i think she spent a lot on my gifts! Jess when and if you read this someday, THANK YOU SO MUCH for making today memorable :D

5. The sotong! Because she was so funny and was quite sweet haha, she wished me happy birthday 3 times today i think! Thank you sooooo much! And i dun think there's anyone else who keeps emphasizing how impt my birthday is! OMG hahahaha but thank you tons :) " Happy valentines day and more impt your BDAE!" hahahaha Thanks!!! :D

I think today i felt quite weird and embarassed coz of all of these tho coz seriously I'm more comfortable with giving then receiving sighh.... x.x I felt v paiseh all day so sorry for the v tame response at times!!:))

I think my God-shaped crevice was pulled open but filled up again.
The birthday wasn't important... it was the people that remembered that were. And what's a birthday without You singing a birthday song for me :D HAHAA Thank you everyone for remembering!!!

Dun really know what to say but looking back 18 is really a long way from 16.
Looking forward to an exciting year with You.

V day makes me wish i had someone to playground with haix....
Haha just wish i could talk to someone.

God's always there :)
Random photos time! :D
The presents from my mortal ( the red and blue thing) sotongs! and the teddy! from Katrina which made me smile:D The shirt under the blue sotong is from my sheep!!! :D haha its a v hilarious shirt i dun dare to wear x.x

The chaos during Valentines which caused Assembly to start late and lessons too :P HAHA...
Shum according to our pictionary man :P
All the food given out today! Haha our class girls are good cooks x.x (effects may not have been seen yet:P) *kidding*

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Just here to make a short post.

THANK YOU 06A13 for the birthday cake and all yesterday! haha quite surprised coz i thought we were celebrating Lam's and Yvonne's birthday.

OH YA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KING LAM AND YVONNE!!!!

Haha finally 18 le and these two people are BOTH born on the 11th of feb! Both are OLDER than me hahahaha :P

Really wanna thank King Lam for always being my go home partner especially on late nights! All the random chats and the really good advice that helped me ALL the way till now! Always thank God He put you in my life :) Friends always :D Crazily responsible CT rep!

YVONNE! Cheerful and bubbly and always on the go! haha keep growing in God and Many happy returns for the year! Although its going to be tough but i hope that there will be a constant joy in you which overcomes all obstacles and troubles! Happy 18th! Thank you for cheering me up with your hyperness!

Thank God for giving me everyday to rejoice in.

Disappointment is definitely not in your dictionary.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Weariness just seeps in slowly and unknowingly forms a tide. Only looking to Him and clinging onto my rock will i be safe and sound.

Tutorials coming in by the load. Just doing doing doing... somehow it comforts me sometimes that i'm doing work but i still dread it horrendously. Its a weird mix of feelings and its homework.

Balancing commitments but never regretting. Just going :) and going.

Take care everyone! The whole world seems to be sick. My dear Jehovah Rapha, please heal us :) because you can and definitely will :)

Believing---- to one who has been there, its easy, simply a part of life. But we forget that sometimes we're one of those who didn't and we forgot that sensation. Faith is never easy at the start but once you get in it, you never wanna give up :)

Restore my soul beside those quiet waters. I drink calmly yet hungrily. I do not know what i want to find. But i know it'll come in due time. Nothing is impossible. Impossible is simply taking a step from possibility.

Sunday, February 04, 2007

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down on green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters and restores me.
He guides me in the path of righteousness for His name's sake.
Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I shall not fear,
for you are with me,
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me,
in the presencence of my enemies,
You anoint my head with oil
and my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will be with me
all of my days,
and I dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

-Psalm 23
Verse of the day memorised :) Whispering it under my breath on the train home, letting it sink into me. The doubts and the constant bouts of impatience, anger, weariness... Just complaining of how I can't change the situation. Is it the right choice? Did i forget? He leads me beside quiet waters and restores me... always. Everlasting and patient love waiting to love and anoint, waiting for forgive.

Not being able to do something that i want to do because it not within my ability, makes me feel so frustrated. But i was made perfectly imperfect, the way i was, for the purpose I was to serve. Frustration won't help but seeking to change would. Patience and perseverance... I've got so much more to learn, so much more to do.

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The day was so enjoyable with a Kompany outing to Vivo to mug :P where we were at CJ pwning famous stars and GB pwned a double western bacon which was OMGDO huge! After that went to some nice coffee place to chill( coz we got chased out -.-), but it was so relaxing there and we managed to do our physical geog :D But there's so much to do nowadays, tutorials piling up and i can't help but feel like a slacker coz i do so little x.x Unlike everyone else who are mugging like mad. I'm starting to get worried.

I'm not done with peer tutoring homework when peer tutoring is tmr which is why i'm up at 1:30 am and i still have to do stuff whoooo.... Training tmr till 6, hope i'm alive then. X)

Still haven't seen a doc unfortunately, busy weekend and busy week, God please hang on to this knee a while longer!

Service yesterday was quite impactful for me, it reminded me of a lot of things which i put to the back of my mind. Life to the fullest is a gift, its not what i do which counts, but this belief in God and a heart for Him.
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Thank You for giving me a wonderful day :). Perfectly imperfect, God i'm looking forward to the challenges you promised :)

Random pic of the day.
Da Kompany, a dear band of brothers :)