Tuesday, May 30, 2006
The night before the 5th last torture session.

Tmr we have the 5th last torture camp for Judo for All J1s. I feel the impending doom. But like all camps, survival is key.

A few sentences of today:

I Love God.
God Loves Me.
That's all i need...

These simple things which i enjoy makes life different in its own way. Cherishing Life isn't always easy. Accepting God's Plan for us is tough and filled with obstacles. Going thru them isn't exactly what you call smooth sailing.

But i guess keeping an open heart and knowing that God cares and knows what you're going thru helps. Knowing that my close frenz and family care helps and everything becomes a lot lighter.

Tomorrow. I'm going off for yet another camp. It's gonna be hard. But i will persevere. Come back. And live life for what it is.

In You my faith is strong.
Amen.

Monday, May 29, 2006
The day after Russia...

When i got on the MRT today, i thought of the Russian Metro. I felt the need to protect my bag. But this was Singapore. I thought of how just a few days ago we were laffing in the Metro and taking photos of "hawt" guys. It hurt a lil there.

The air was warm. Different from the dry cold on in Moscow.

In crowded places, there was not much need to worry abt anything, but somehow i was rather cautious and felt rather weird. I just missed Russia.

I saw this weird guy behind our Pw grp at PW meeting today. He twitched. and twitched. unnaturally. I was freaked.

I am now braceless. MY BRACES ARE OFF! And my teeth feel as if they would fall out anytime. Which is weird.

And went to YS's grandpa's wake.... hope she's alright. She looked fine when me and jh were there.

Today was rather tiring.... Poor Junhua was exhausted... get a good rest k?

Well that's all for today... the day i missed Russia.... Day 1

Sunday, May 28, 2006
May 28th Sunday.

HI, I'm HOME!^^ Russia was cool!

Moscow: Everything looks... communist. The same.... Everything. Buildings looked like the kind you see in European films. Brown. Windows square. But the monuments and the Red Square were AMAZING OMYHOLY~!

This is St Basil's cathedral. Looks like Aladdin's Palace ehhh? :P Moscow is just wonderful when it comes to Cathedrals. Highlight would be we had Elena as our guide!!! Haha!!! She's so de prettily :D

St Petersburg!!!!!! I loved St petersberg sooooo much! EVERYTHING WAS BEAUTIFUL!

Peterhoff Palace was totally O.O! Look at all the fountains :D We also saw 1/4 of Da Vinci's remaining paintings (2 out of 8 X.X) and of Vincent Van Gogh, Pablo Picasso.... etc Art overload! It was so beautiful that beauty became boring >.<

Russia was cold even in summer.... it was 10 degrees Celsius. I was bunked with urh ehrm... so things were quite ermm.... nvm i shall not go into details. Anyway there were a lot of human politics... unfortunately. But we were still cool and fun! :D

The trip was exciting... also because we nearly got robbed by gypsies, paranoid abt gypsies, saw the russian mafia at the train station, were on guard 24/7, had late nights, stood sentry duty on a train where the doors-could-actually-be-locked-but-the-teachers-were-paranoid-coz-they-couldn't-find-it, had prayer services with Pastor Lee sharing Long old grandmother testimonies, room crashing, having blanket parties, taking gay photos, making messy beds, it was so crazy but soo fun....

I miss it so much....... sigh.... This feeling would be hard to fade.

Girls: Fungg, Kylie, Junhua, Yuanshan, Helen, Job(?) haha

Guys: Jonathan, Liheng, Job :), Yi An, Galven, Vernon and Fish (Hongyu).

Saturday, May 20, 2006
Russia!

Leaving for RUSSIA TODAY!!!!!! Excited but not yet pack sigh.... Well, I guess its time to say farewell!! See you in a week or something.

Some summaries of the week:

BBALL finals was amazing. Haha i saw ___ there, haven't seen her in ages... i guess when i saw her it reallie reminded me of how much i missed her and the rest of the bball gang. We were like close in P school days, but we drifted in secondary school. The memories i treasured can only be held silently in my heart, all the times that we laughed and cried together, it all persist and remains in my mind. We talked a lil and i'm still glad we can still get along quite well. Oh wells. Her same old boyish self :P

Went for service and was DRENCHED in God's rain. I love the feeling of warmth, of an unspeakable feeling. Its just quite.... undescribable. But i feel a lot better inside after service. Thank you for all the well wishes for my trip!!!! Thank you Lord for Blessing me with all i have....

Dance Night was quite spectacular. Junhong!!!! AHHHHHHH :P I still have photos of you being damn hyper LOL!!! AHAHHAHA!

Lastly, Bon Voyage to all those going abroad to OCIPs and Perak. May you all return safely. And to Fungg and Junhua: WE'RE LEAVING TODAY WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Thursday, May 18, 2006
May 18th.

I'm leaving for Russia soon. Having mixed feelings. Excitement. Worry. A tinge of anticipation.
The worry lies with the crime rate. The excitement i dun have to explain. :D May God bless us all on this trip, Praise be to Him :)

I feel so guilty about not attending CG today coz of peer tutoring. I reallie missed that spiritual nourishment and getting to know God more :(. It was especially heavy today because God truly watched over me as i found my nearly lost laptop. :( I prayed real hard and gave thanks but still it was truly different from a CG... Sighh.... I hope i won't miss CG again x.x

I owe Tracy lunch for helping me out so much today! a big THANK YOU for all your help X.X i could have lost it without you:D Haha thanks sooooooo much for doing me so many favours.

This post is also dedicated to EUGENE! Its been so long since we last went out. We've been busy with our own stuff and we finally got to go out ytd for dinner. It was reallie nice to go out like we used to. Haha being childhood frenz is cool :P

Well, its sorta late and i'm exhausted. Nite!

Friday, May 12, 2006
Friday May 12th

I have tasted the most powerful zong1 ji2 mi4 ma3 forfeit ever today. Never mix hotcake syrup, garlic chilli, iced milo, butter and sugar together. It will kill you X.X. Could taste it for the rest of the day OMG!

Watched a thriller abt some freak calling this girl who was babysitting kids. Till the point she went nuts. So sad. Watched it with Jer, Fungg and kenneth. I thot the storyline was a little lacking however the thrill was there. It wasn't horror exactly... just thrill :P

Was in school hellishly early for Vesak day.... For SYF drama. its on next tues! OMG! Feels quite insecure. Just feel dat we should practice more. Was more confident during Dramafeste.

Hung out with CG pple :D Was fun at swensens getting treated to ice cream was cool!^^ Thanks guys!!! I was totally broke x.x hope i can go for church camp. Sigh....

June is totally booked for me. Camps from 20-28th then judo 30th-1st then Ares 4th-6th and lastly Church camp 7th-10th. Omg!

Hope i survive. Post tmr its getting late and my eyes are heavy. Nite

Monday, May 08, 2006
May 8th.

I got tagged by Tracee ^^ oh wells :S never done this before >.< INSTRUCTIONS.
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment at their blogs.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is no need to do this AGAIN.
5. The most impt rule: have fun doing it.

#1. Someone who is willing to share her thoughts and troubles with me and allow me to share mine with her, because sharing what you think truly makes the relationship a sweet and strong one ^^ :) Mutual dependence is truly amazing :)

#2. Someone who will go thru thick and thin with me :D to withstand whatever obstacles that life throws at us.

#3. Someone who understands and loves me for who i am. I am human and i have my fair share of flaws >.<

#4. Someone who can be frank with me and feel comfortable, her being able to air her opinions, even teasing me about my flaws. I know its weird... but friendly quarrels and teasing dun hurt and it just makes the relationship sweeter and it also means she cares :)

#5. She'll probably have a strong character :) a little stubborn perhaps :P like me X.X i guess for this it takes one to neutralise the other :P

#6. Feeling comfortable with her. When we talk, we'll talk abt casual things, anything under the sun because there's nothing to hide between. Even if there's nothing to talk about, her prescence would be calming :)

#7. She'll probably be cheerful as well ^^ :) Seeing her smile would make me smile. Letting me make her smile wouldn't be too bad either :P but considering my bad jokes :P

#8. Someone i trust with all my secrets and our secret moments :), respects me as much as i respect her. Without trust, i guess there is no love :)


AND I TAG: Junhong,Huiyu, Fungg, MJ, Shijie (YXY :P), Puizui, Charm and Guobin. :)

but Actually there is a special clause #9 which would override everything.

#9. As long as i love her and she loves me, nothing else really matters :)

Bad bout of cough. post abt it tmr sighhhh. Dying!

Requiem. Renaissance. Genesis...

Friday, May 05, 2006
5th May. The day i was very very sick. :(

The flu and fever didn't go away :( But i missed two trainings le so i reallie reallie had to turn up for this one... it was a sort of discipline call... or you could say the memories dat haunt me which made this crazy decision. But i reallie reallie appreciate the concern by my classmates!!!

Tracee, Fungg, Yvonne, Yeekai: The people at the bench before my training. Persuading me not to go, and reallie ( nagging seems to be the wrong word.) being concerned. It reallie touched me :) But i know i deserve a scolding :P you can give it anytime :) but i had to do what had to be done.

Junhua: For some reasons:p and being a mind reader -.- and being concerned too :D

Lee Yang and Kenneth: My pon maths buddies who also kept asking me to take care of myself. Hee reallie appreciate it :D

Shijia: For being so typically her :P Her concern and innocence reallie was a calming prescence :)

Junhong: My buddy who noticed more or less every lil painful moment. His assurance, concern and little jokes reallie brightened my day.

Jeriel: For being him :) he was rather quiet today but calming too nonetheless. :)

To everyone in 06A13 who gave the little concerns and advice and assurance THANK YOU!!!!
To my Judo mates for being encouraging and understanding all the way!! Ahin :D Wes, Thomas, Carl. especially :D

This is like a mega thank you card.

Let me tell you something other! :D

I had another form of energy as i was half dead on the bus home. People were STREAMING IN EVERYWHERE to my house stadium there for some lame rally for tmr's elections. Its been going on all week but must go TODAY! Siao! Traffic jam and downstairs nowhere to park. It took me 2 hours to get home. Reallie got me quite pissed x.x Haiz but i got my energy back.

Hope i get to service tmr! :D

Thursday, May 04, 2006
Thursday, May 4th

Caregroup was fun today! :D We did the usual games, worship and holy comm and it was reallie meaningful :D I reallie wanna thank GOD for pulling me through this week x.x it's been hard with the fever and the flu and i reallie wanna thank Him for making me feel better :)

I feel myself get over you...
and i feel myself again....
and i know that i can make it thru anything...
Coz I Don't Need You.

I really dunno how i feel.
When i see < >, i just wanna say hi. And just talk. It just seems weird. The warm fuzzy feeling just won't go away. I told myself not to, coz its just not possible and it would only make me think more and feel sort of blue abt it. Maybe its just growing up. I don't know. I only know that the bittersweet feeling is reallie annoying sometimes. I wish i had a twin who knew what i was thinking. How could would dat be? Or even a sister or brother who could give me some advice...

I dunno who to turn to sometimes. Who i can trust. Trust is a weird friend on this road of Life.

Sometimes i stumble over words, afraid i'll say the wrong thing, sometimes i don't know how to react to people's words and i make jokes seem too serious or my replies seem just lame. Maybe i'm too concious of myself. I lack confidence perhaps. I remember Sudave told me, just say what is in your mind and don't try to think too much abt it during the pub speaking course. It meant something to me. I need to work on it i guess. I reallie admire some people who can think up funny and smooth replies coolly, some people like dat are Yee Kai ( our fac head :D) and Kenneth, who is natural at making unknowingly funny remarks :P. To another extent Guobin, coz he's cool when it comes to the crunch but he can really do funny and say funny things in situations where you least expect it.

Today when i was praying during CG. A few things suddenly dawned to me. Firstly, Giving. I can't tell how but it came in to me dat praying was so much more about giving, not only to people but to God. The second thing was Patience and Peace. To always keep a cool head. To wait and not rush.

Ever since p6, I've been extroverted. I practically hungered acceptance. But i talked and expressed myself till it almost seemed natural to. But it was a blessing yet a curse. I lost my patience, to keep myself from thinking before diving into matters. To think before i said. To shut up and listen. I need to find that patience back.

Self-control. Patience. Peace. Thought.

Study. Read. Train.

Music. Pray.

Life.

Life ain't simple. Never was. Never will be.

Random post.

Thots in dots.

Post later.