Friday, March 31, 2006
March 31st. Intro day.

Council elections intros were fun! Someone was AMB. (go figure!) Vox Populi video rox!!!! Guobin got owned.

I'm not confused anymore. Nor screwed up. Candy stays candy unless something changes. I've decided to keep life as it is :D Simple and sweet. I love our class, i love my batchies hahaha! :D They brighten up my life so much... I couldn't really ask for more:)

I only wish for more time to be spent with them :)

I wish all our 06A13 council runners to be successful!!! :D

We'll all miss Karweng while he's in Hong Kong! Come back soon buddy :D

Today was tiring :P carrying mats and training twice. Haven't done it in a long time. Well Video tmr!!! Yay! :D

haha April Fools is erm tmr oso:D

Thursday, March 30, 2006
30th march, Thursday

Finally back to school after resting one whole day on wednesday! :D And we ended at 1 pm X.X Happy class lunch! Sigh but our end of the table a bit quiet:P And we found one way to hit someone's hand into erm... :P JH gd experience sia :P Olivia has lightning fast reflexes BEWARE!:P ^^

But everyone siamed after that... i think i sort of wasted my only free afternoon of the week off again sigh.... Vox populi video rox LOL! can't wait to see it tmr! Gd luck Yeekai and Hongwei!! :D

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The raindrops like tears fall on my clothes and soak thru my skin... I can only watch you from afar, unable to bring myself forward to say something. Of all these years is this my solace? Or is it just another passing stop by the road of life? Something to hold my attention for only this part of this road? What do i feel? The rain of today comforts me with its cold touch as i can only embrace it with my lone soul.

I feel confused and i don't know what i feel or what i think. To see a smile? Or to hear a few words? What do i feel for you? I don't know. Your prescence is somewhat missed... but i really can't tell what it means. I don't know. What i do know is i miss a smile and the friendly banter. A smile:) Just. Like. That.
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Haha congrats to junhong :), things seem to be going fine... :) jiayou! :)

Tuesday, March 28, 2006
March 28th, Wednesday

I feeling a bit de traumatised now. Coz of training. Dunno why i feel super tired and the cough reallie made me tear up 3-4 times during training. Today i had first hand experience of what a capt reallie goes thru man... shouting counts for pumpings, "supermans" while partnering Ahin, it was reallie tiring. I could feel my voice barely squeezing out the syllables with every shout, my cough interrupted some counts (which i'm sorry for coz it nearly messed up the counting)... it was just a new experience which makes me appreciate my capts so much more.

Bridge was fun today!!! With fungg, jer and junhong, it was damn fun!!! we shuld hav more sessions! Fungmin holding crucial cards for crucial wins. Jeriel and junhong tricking the brains out of everyone, until i blur then heck care just play. damn chaotic but exciting :D:D:D!!!!

YAY class outing on thursday!!!!!! Looking forward to it!

Just found out how pro Yingtze is! Dip in violin and piano this year. SYO violinist. She's v busy this year coz of all these performances and exams so i think we (as a class) should give her support!!! Haha talk to her more too :D think i shall do dat. She's super nice :D

Shum, Junhua and Lyly did a great job at finishing the Vox Populi banner! Haha zai!!! rawkzor :D

I am super random today. haha!!! :D But the world is swirling arnd my vision now... think i will go to slp.

Sunday, March 26, 2006
Sunday, March 26th.

Quote of the day: " Friends listen to what you say, Best friends listen to what you do not..."

This quote was picked out of an e mail MJ sent me and i felt it was particularly meaningful to me... Eugene if you ever read this, i hope you understand what i mean now. I think i can say that i don't hav many best friends right now and the numbers are dwindling, unfortunately. Where you devote your feelings, thinking that you always knew what you wanted to know, taking things for granted are things that hav caused rifts. Those rifts cause where i am now. Sometimes i feel i am the one not listening, but there are times where i feel that you don't want me listening. What i lose, i can only look back but i may not be able to retrieve, it serves no form of reprieve to reminisce as well. What i can do, is look forward and hope...

Was pretty hyper this afternoon, on a mass laming run whenever and wherever i could. But i never knew why i was hyper, sigh... so weird. Studied with Junhong for abt an hour and found out that math is confounding and mathematicians are always faking you. You can read your tutorials and lecture notes alright. Reading makes sense. Practical will kill you. Death to math X.X

Night is a cruel companion. On a Sunday night, he is merciless. He makes you feel the overwhelming sense of the oncoming, ominous and obsecure, impending doom of Mondays. The timetabling committee gave us a timetable which was perfectly time inelastic. No space to breathe. The weekends are equally packed. Only sunday to catch up with homework and sleep.

" When the entire world is against you, the entire world walks out on you, but a best friend walks in."

Who will walk through that door? I really wonder.

Parents tell me i am spoilt.
I'd gladly remind them what they are doing with my brother.

For me, i know where i need to go. I've had my share of bad times, punishments. Although i confess i need help at times, let me walk my own road. My path is the only path i can take. If you determine it for me, will it still be my path? Or will it just be a path of your wish?
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First impressionists. Give others a 2nd chance before you judge. I know i am close to a 1st impressionist. I know i need to change. Do you know who you are? I think its an interesting enough question... for every individual.
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This post seems random because i've plucked it all out of my head after processing various thoughts.

Quoting V: " Only the people of the future can make such a decision which determines their lives."

Or something like that.

It is time for a change. " Can you hear the music?"

Saturday, March 25, 2006
25th March

V for vendetta rox! Some quotes:

Remember remember the fifth of November
Gunpowder, treason and plot.
I see no reason why gunpowder, treason
Should ever be forgot...

This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished, as the once vital voice of the verisimilitude now venerates what they once vilified. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-à-vis an introduction, and so it is my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V.

haha spammed. But i like V so much becoz he's not your simple hero in a mask. The sotry is so ironic in so many ways. Governments controlling too much dat the society becomes sort of communist and strife breeding from it. Some people more equal than others eh?

The initiator, hardly the participant.

The outing was fun :) during dinner, me and Wei-ge (lol!)like a bit ostro coz we were flipping thru 8 days and couldn't hear a thing on the other end of the table except the occasional "Hongwei!". She replied a few times today but she sounded busy... sometimes i wonder what she's doing and what she's thinking of. What kinda person she is. I sound a lil weird but its what i think sometimes... Outing was fun :D hope Lyly enjoyed it coz its her first class outing and gongrats on finding dat wallet :D:D haha cya tmr!

Friday, March 24, 2006
Friday.... 24th march

Day with a Hellish time table. Managed to go out for dinna with Junhong and Jer finally! again! and it was fun. Talked to Kat for most of the afternoon which was quite interesting >.< :D:D MJ looks moderately like a certain domestic erm... :P muahaha bash me! :P

I don't know what to feel today. Its so mixed and a lot of thots in a whirl. Will A13 still be the A13 we knew and fought for? Is it still that A13... I really really hope so. Will anyone look back on what once was and see a difference?

No one believed that 2 months was all it took to change something but it did.

Tmrw watching V for Vendetta with classies :D Hope it'll be fun... i miss class outings.... and bonding sessions...

Guess I'm done for now

Thursday, March 23, 2006
Thursday, 23rd March

Today was post-competition stress. My body felt... strained and weary. My mind probably shut down halfway thru the marathon of lessons. I was just happy that i had a free afternoon.

Went out with Jer, YK, LY and Kenneth today. we walked arnd and my laces got caught in the escalator!!!! WTH??? first time sia. They cleaned it up pretty fast tho -.- but didn't help in decapacitating my shoe from my lace ( which me and kenneth did efficiently after 2 tries lol). It just totally tore off and thus we have new coloured laces!!!! HAHHAHA!

After window shopping (a lot, my shopping stamina = 0 so sad:( ), Jer and YK went off first leaving Lee yang, Kenneth and me sitting in cine BK stoning and talking. We had a lot of erm... interesting topics :P What family in what field la hor....:P Plus a certain bucket... ok nvm :P HAHAHHA. Just hyper after laffing like mad, probably why i'm feeling so tired now lol. But it was fun hanging out with them. you guys rock sia :D

Afterwhich i ended up at home :) chatted to many pple X.X ( hi Kat :P lol) . Tmr is gonna be another freeday! No training! Then go run with junhong then go out hopefully! Who wanna go out tmr tell me hor?! Ok nites!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006
National Indivs day...

Today is the day. Or was the day. I was looking forward to it, but fearing it at the same time. That "B" div gold... i wanted it so badly... But i'm so disappointed with myself... I wanted to beat him, but it only takes a moment of hesitance to kill you. Every single round i fought come to waste at the last... Just to hope to achieve one small goal of mine then reality came crashing down. Just that split second and i would have gotten it... and i blew it. The feeling really sucks...

I feel like an idiot sometimes... telling myself i wanna be the best but not being able to touch gold as yet... But i guess it just means i have to work more dats all... Spending the afternoon with my batchmates really lightened up my mood i guess. :)

Our school did pretty well. B div had like 2 golds, 3 silvers and a bronze, our of four divisions. While A boys, had 2 golds, and two bronzes. A girls had i think 2 golds, a silver and 2 bronzes. We have another 3 months counting down to National Schools team. The grand event. Something else to really hard for lol and reallie hope i do well then... X.X

Skipped school today and hope i'll be back tmr. I need to get back to work again... or else i'll fall behind. Sounding like a mugger but i'm not okay X.X

Anyway, Disappointments are a part of life... things can only get better... right?

Monday, March 20, 2006
Two days before indivs....

Feeling: Sick. My bout of flu refuses to go away. And i got caught in the biggest massive rainstorm at KAP only to find that it lasted until HC... wth...

Indivs in 2 days. I don't know what to feel but i know i'm quite indifferent today. Haha Olivia's observation on me is very true hmmm :P maybe i used to it le ba. I'm not really present de la hmmm lol yeah...

Tmr no skool in the morning. Think I'll go back school mug la... i still owe Geog stuff so i might as well do it in school.

I had the wettest taxi ride of my entire life lol. The ride back from KAP to HC to TP. It was super mega kill wet and cold. I hope Lee Yang, Peiyu and Yingtse dun get colds X.X

Not feeling in total control of myself today. Not feeling myself either... Quite irritated. Quite tired. Quite fan2 nao3. But nvm. Quiet time was here.
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After 20 mins of thinking and doing sth else, I dun think i shld be fan2 nao3. Esp abt fam. stuff...
If you wanna pick on me, pick on me. I carn win if i fight back so i'll take wadeva crap you give me and see if i'll ignore it or not. Shouting at me doesn't mean you can bend my will. I know you mean well but sometimes you dictating things that i do isn't gonna help. Because Jonathan is Jonathan. Somethings i can never change.

I wonder if Junhong and Jeriel have noticed but I'm starting to notice a lil bit of separation. Sry for being frank on it :P But i know i'm being extremely sensitive. Hope that after a little bit of indiv time and remixing everything will be fine :D

I'm not anyone else. I can only be myself. that's final.

Saturday, March 18, 2006
A brand new day!

UP Bright and Early this morning!!!! Feeling much better except for the cough, praying that it'll go away by wednesday!!! :D:D

I dunno whether to feel nervous or not... haiz... nervousness always costs me something but it keeps me on the edge. Dunno whether to anticipate or to worry, nationals are always like that, cause there is always something to lose but something so priceless to gain. Like our senoirs say every year. " You come for training and suffer all year round, just to compete in nationals (usually team is more impt lol). Just for that 3 mins in there. So you come here to win." And that's what i want to do. Fighting for B boys this yr X.X

Thanks Kar Weng for the encouragement! I will jiayou and yes you will see a more hyper me on monday. I can't say how much i want to get back to skool again sigh... (except for the homework factor X.X!)

06A13 really rox and i reallie love my class hahahaha:D
I'll post abt my day later in the day :D

50th blog post

Welcome back to all the OAC-ers:)

Feeling feverish again. Went for training. And died. Cough won't go away. Nose won't stop running. ( coz its not lame... nvm)

Feeling like crap. Not to po1 leng3 shui3 but we got tests on monday and tuesday. Homework consists of a HUGE stack of useless crap...Some undone... (most?)

Slept for 4 hrs but still feeling super fatigued...

Will try to feel better hopefully... but awfully shut downed X.X

DACKS ROCKS! ok lol:P

Post later.

Thursday, March 16, 2006
March 16th Thursday.

Although there was no training today, sigh... still wasted one day being busy. In the morning, i woke up at like arnd 5-6 becoz temperature went up again. So i took a couple of pills and went to slp. Only to wake up and feel worse... 7-8 am!! forced to wake up because i could take it anymore. Then when i got home with a pack of soya bean milk ( YAY SOYA BEAN MILK!!!) i popped the pack and split it all over the floor X.X. Super irritated! Then i had to mass clean up for half an hour haiz....

Afternoon had piano, which i felt totally zoned out and listless. I screwed up so many pieces i got pretty tired... plus i was actually moderately irritated... but i dunno why. have been in an irritable mood for some time now sigh...

Mugged alone for abt 2-3 hours doing the econs prep... it took me a long time to digest a lot of stuff... doing it alone was a sort of way to think things out oso... I guess it was also one of the periods of alone time i lacked for a long time. Who do i trust now? At what cost? At which road? At which juncture? I dunno man sigh... i feel confused...

The bright spark of the day. I am guilty of talking to someone now. So actually i dun think i'll feel so bad when i go to sleep tonight while thinking abt what i've done today. Maybe. Coz i actually managed to finished my econs essay prep! (ya right...) Mugger Jon at work. :P:P:P

Anyway... I think i'll stop being pessimistic but i wish the world was simpler. Coz i reallie think i shld rethink my choices... and the places where i choose to put my soul. Deep words for a lame lil blog :P sigh... I can only respect you only as much as you respect me.

Individuals in one week. Please. No more disappointments. Cough go away. Fever oso.

One last thing at 12 mn. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEEKAI!!!!! :D

Haha thus i end my blog dot. dot. dot.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006
5 days later... :D

A lot happened in these 5 days :D Sigh and it reminds me on how long i've not been posting. GD LUCK to all the OAC pplez at YLTC now, heard its reallie tough:P Hang in there (tho its a bit late for me typing this).

I think i sorta miss our school days ( i mean wth?) But JC life seems to be reallie different i dunno if you guys feel it. A13 is fun which makes every day different and interesting from another. Sigh but gotta rmbr to mug during hols. X.X

Been training coz next wednesday is NATIONALS INDIVS. Yes. Da biggest Indivs. Team is still bigger tho. But even if i am fighting for "B" boys ( weird right?? sighh....), i really want that GOLD! :D

Huang Cheng rocked on Sunday! Kar Weng had a reallie good performance :D Paula was great too :D:D The third play a bit cheem tho X.X But it was fun :) and the Huang Cheng pple can Finally take a break :D! They always seemed so busy on school days dat sometimes i reallie admire how hard they work! Congrats on the successful and wonderful production!!!! :D

Pool on monday was fun with Junhong and Fuji 4 hours of pool for free? How good can it get :P Damn zhai la:P I wanna play again!!!!

Tuesday was ownage with training at amk park... sigh i look at the hills, i reallie sian diao already. Up and down headache sia! Imagine running up hill and down hill wakaoz.... After that went for a K box 5-hr marathon with Hongwei, Paula and Shijia. First time there. And i got owned. The pple i went with all can sing de la! I so zibei X.X but it was damn high and fun!!! Altho a bit exx la :P I think it lead to the sore throat i had this morning but it was worth it X.X. Exposure to a lot of chinese songs. Shijia and Hongwei are like expertz O.O mass man. Zai zhe wu ding shang chang zhe ni de ge... :P

Anyway, today! Felt feverish in the morning!! o.O coz of sore throat i think. Now i got a dreadful cough and throat and i reallie hope i get better! :D Survived training anyway... and didn't see a doc. I have not listened to Shijie so she is nagging @ me to go see a doc :P and that i dun take care of myself enuff. Thanks for the care and concern but dun ji1 dong4 I'll be fine :P.

Hope tmr will be a better day. Fatigue killing me. OLE!

Friday, March 10, 2006
March 10th, Friday.

Today was fun! Although we received bad news :( Ms Selva isn't teaching our class anymore... she's like the funkiest GP teacher ever but she's not teaching us nxt term... i think i'll miss her lessons a lot. Coz its like one of the few fun ones.

2nd intakers are zhai! They are super nice :P Although we haven't seen Yingtse yet, i hope she's nice too :P Peiyu keeps saying i'm like trixie X.X Lols i caught the Trixie syndrome without knowing mehh?? :P But sometimes i do agree that i'm more or less as hyper as Trix and reallie some of her actions really grew on me :P NXY lives v far away from RV. Yes:p All our 2nd intakes are all funny and lame like all of us which only makes A13 a more ownage class than ever!!! :D

Cheer Up, Junhua!!! :D Smile more and dun lose gas k? I have total faith in you:P Dun worry and everything will be fine soon. Meanwhile, you've still got us (:)) to support you :P Take a chance so we can crap oso la:P haha Jiayou!!! For precamp, YLTC and everything that strains you, will be right behind you :D

Our nxt term time table is packed and it sarx... quite tiring. Hope i will be able to survive. Huang Cheng this sunday and i wish all the huang cheng pple luck!!! We will be there to support you!!! :D And it will be our first new A13 outing. Cheers!

P.S We got a b day coming up. Anyone wanna spread the 13 celebrations and cheer?

Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Welcome 2nd intakers! Welcome back Lee Yang and Paula! 06A13!

I guess its only good news today! :D Lee Yang and Paula are back!!! WELCOME AND CONGRATS ON APPEAL!!! :D:D:D so happy to have you guys back!!

I hope Siqi makes it back too :P then our class will be almost back to the original A13 :D:D ( if you haven't realised our ratio will be 13:13 with skii back):P

Welcome to all 2nd intakers!!! :D If i'm not wrong, we have Peiyu, Olivia, Yvonne, Lyly and Yikai. Welcome to 06A13!!!! :D:D:D We pwn! Enjoy your stay here! Forgive me if i've got your names wrong :P

Anyway, I've decided dat depressing posts go down the drain:P I will be happy as much as possible. " Somethings are not worth getting irritated over" :P sounds familiar hor?? :P Ya but thanks for the advice. I think so too so i'll get onto it.

Training was tough but short today. So many problems. AND INDIVS IS THE FIRST WEEK AFTER HOLS! I'm so worried la. NO xin1 li3 zhun3 bei4! sigh! I want a gold!

I haven't touched my piano in 2 days. So sad!! Must touch soon. But so tired after screwing up my geog test. haizz. I shall have R&R today! Haha, :D:D:D Hyper today totally! hee but tired!! Cya!

Tuesday, March 07, 2006
One day before second intake.

Firstly, Sunday's class dinner was great at fish & co... we did some fun stuff and Kar Weng picked some pretty good dishes o.o. We played Zhong ji mi ma a lot, truth and dare and stuff. Then we went to the sky gardens to watch the laser show and DJs. Guobin and Karweng did the dedication to the girls. Sigh, i guess there's one which will remain unseen...We'll miss Paula, Lee Yang and Siqi... as well as the rest who are changing class, good luck in whatever you do and dun give up!

I shall be honest now. I may not have known any of you v well, but there are those small memories which i will keep close to my heart. Paula and Lee Yang , i think i just started to get to know you guys but i sorta regret that i don't have the chance to continue, i hope we meet up again sometime :P For Siqi, I guess I just didn't really have the chance to know you but you were always ready with the energy and the smiles for the class and you reallie brightened other people's days, hope you will succeed in whatever you wish you do:)

Second intakers are coming in tomorrow... i don't know what to expect and i dun wanna speculate anyway. Let what will come, come. Let what will be, be.

Geog test tmr, I'm just study... in whatever way i can. 2 Years behind geog time is just a lil delayed i guess.

I shall learn to grow up. Yes, i will. For myself. Maybe for someone else. Maybe for a lot of other people as well... sigh, this is confusing.

I am rather tired/irritated/angry because of something i read today, sigh... I guess I'll miss 06A13 now... Hope we get nice intakers... yeah well.

" And i know, although times may be hard we can see it thru, as i'll forever be in love with you."
Forever in Love A1.

Saturday, March 04, 2006
~~~~~06A13! Happy Ending!~~~~~~~

Didn't post yesterday coz i totally lost gas when i got home but.... 06A13 STAYS TOGETHER!!!! Its the best news ever!!! Haha, the smiles on everyone's faces was fantastic!!!!! After being depressed and worried for the past few days and depressing blog posts, we made it!

It was Fungmin's b day too :P hope she liked the keychain thingy X.X (not to mention the Tezuka pin muahhahahahah) :P Anyway, hoped you enjoyed your b day :D

Now, we pray for and hope for Paula, Lee Yang and Siqi who are appealing back in. I reallie reallie hope they make it back... Our class would be different without you guys. Have faith :)

Today, I somehow managed to get feverish this morning... it burned our in the afternoon but still stuck with a lousy throat. Feeling reallie fatigued all day. And i think i'm getting another bout of fatigue... haiz hope it goes away soon.

Thursday, March 02, 2006
Thursday, March 02. 2006. The day which broke so many hearts.

The past week has been hectic... and depressing. First, we heard abt the change of schools behind someone's back. Then, our ILP presentation got shot down for no apparent or v obvious reason.

Lastly, Our class was given the warning that we might be reshuffled.

Yesterday, We had a discussion with Mr Quek( our pwnage CT) and he would fight for us. We wanted to stay together so much... And the admin wanted to switch our class because of disciplinary probs in the other class??! That's so blatantly unfair, piling the problems on us.

Today, after Mr Quek sent in his petition for our staying of class, we got the message that the admin wanted to change us because of tutorial groups being small. I mean WTH?? You wanna split us into hist and geog because of that? It makes no sense! Especially coz everything's been fine until now and summore hist and geog has always been held at the same time! It just makes no sense. They said we would most likely change. What's the point?! We are already so close to our own classes and with an additional PW would only take up another GP lesson! We would rather end late or give up breaks to get the PW lesson. I could handle a stricter time table to stay with my class. I love 06A13 as it is...

The moment word got out of the likely transfer... the impact. The first feeling i had was shock. Then it was the anger. Sorrow. I felt the loss of it all. The tears shed by others... I felt lost... i didn't know wat i could do. I felt some thing empty within me... all my memories and dreams. We belonged to 06A13... we went thru all the changes, all the people leaving and coming to form what we call 06A13 now! 1 and a half months later you tell us that we have to change again?! Your telling us that class spirit can be replaced by making new friends?! That's crap! Being comfortable with your classmates are one of the most IMPT things ever... A13 is one of the most bonded classes I've ever known. Tmrw we petition with A11 against this transfer and we will succeed. Stay STRONG A13!!!!!!!!!!

I love my class. Laugh at me if you want but i had even pictured spending the next 2 years with them. How we would welcome our junoir class like our senoir class did. We will have been together all the way. I want it this way. I thought abt all the times we laughed and had fun. Dinners, lunches, stupid jokes, banners, plays, skits, support for events and all the late night talking we did during STJ and during orientation... I made great friends here and i dun want this class to ever break up...

Please let tmr be a better day! Please let our class stay together! Please, please, please...

I don't want anymore goodbyes. Even if we're in the same school, its different... We've said goodbyes during orientation and those hurt. More people will leave soon... If half our class leaves with this change, what would be left of us? Please let us say goodbye no more...