Saturday, February 25, 2006
Feb 25th :D:D Saturday.

Sorry tracee! Haha jiayou oso kz?? :D:D OAC PT looks tough X.X I shall hope to crash it one day... maybe :P

Its time to pia. One month to national schools individual championships!!! Holy! Fighting for B boys X.X at least i think so hopefully:P Our J1 team is quite overtaxed with the lack of pple in the A div and the problem with the B div so our actually not-so-pia-rest-one-year plan has gone down the drain. Must pia twice as hard!!! (Stress catches up.) The painful past comes back to me every national schools and this time I REFUSE to be on the end with shattered dreams. Our team will pia and win this yr!!! Another goal is NOT be a consistent receiver of the coppery metal (also known as bronze) :P for indivs. The shiny,shiny ones look better :P Recovery is going...erm slow coz training has to keep going. I'm sorta happy getting myself back on task (altho i complain abt it a lot X.x yes, i know). Miss training with my teammies :P TEAM BAG! Haha, must jiayou for PT on tues, it'll be nuts! X.X Must train fingers.

Back on schedule with my Piano practise regime!!! Need to start practising real hard coz I've been slacking off a lot! My trills are crappy, fingers getting disconnected at longer phrases and i'm getting lost on score X.X The only thing I'm happy abt is i love Presto!!! B:1 Grade 8 exam piece. Will try to be practising in Fish tank whenever i can. Tracy, give some tipz :P Plz :D

Planning to run a bit more too. Weights are back on schedule. So many things to do!! Homework is catching up plus school is starting soon with the 2nd intakers coming. I love 06A13 now. Good Luck everyone!! Posting's in a week!

Well, back to work. :D

Friday, February 24, 2006
24th feb.

Went back for 2 trainings today haiz. Bushed now. I ripped my nail off quite a bit, it bled quite a lot today sigh and my fingers are still weak. They are trembling uncontrollably now for no particular reason. Sigh... training tmr, think oso quite sian.

Saw the OAC pplz today @ their discussion/training kind of thing. It looks super fun la... haha i envy you guys lor X.X I envy Ziyang oso who is an instructor now. I wish training didn't have such a competitive edge to it sometimes... its just taxing as it adds pressure. But still pushing our limits is the only way to go and it teaches a lot :) Judo does it a lot X.X

Class was pretty boring today except for GP where we watched Mean Girls!!! It was quite nice la, i remember watching it when i was younger. I think it really made me ponder a lot about life now... all the backstabbing, is it happening now?? Maybe ya... I sorta see some part of it in myself as well. I feel rather guilty of it too... But i hope that i can change it conciously... hopefully ba. Giving others a chance isn't such a difficult thing to do.

I guess I'm reflective again sigh... happens to me a lot nowadays. I guess i realised some very interesting stuff too... about myself and others. Haiz, Junhua said RJ D'feste was really good... sigh I guess with all the uh uhrm connotations some plays lost a lot of value. But i miss ARES D'feste productions a lot... Haha, life just got a lot more boring for me.

P.S Must practice FUNGMIN JING SHEN :P
( haha really serious. Dead serious.:P OK maybe not dead.)

Managed to stay awake and listen during maths lecture ok? it works :P haha Fungmin and Junhua jiayou for OAC PT! :D

Thursday, February 23, 2006
23rd Feb.

Sigh, school was tiring... haha! But we must learn the FM jing shen!!! :P " It is wrong to pon lectures. :P" Haha but seriously I really admire dat spirit la Fungmin:P haha i will learn from that. I can't fall back further from slacking le! Must jiayou!:P

Anyway, aiya my piano skills tui bu like crazy! Now only can go in for exams late this yr or next yr... Sigh i must pia like crazy... Training oso. Must get my place back. Push myself harder. Heard OAC training was tough, wonder what its like... hmmm

I wanna go running again! Anybody wanna run wif me??

Something else cool happened today. Lol, Shijia said she wanted to pon CSP! Yes, she did! YAY, Shijia you rawk sia! But i was moderately stunned :P haha but she went anyway X.X nvm A13 will be united and will not listen to the lecture. Physical presence is enough :P

In the afternoon, went to watch Final Destination 3 with Jeriel and Kenneth. After watching the first 15 mins or so, I was like why am i watching this? Really should have gone for I not stupid too... It was like the Saw 2 All over again except more gore, less storyline. Holy crap. Ok i only dare to type one part. The scariest part. Nailgun. Nah one word, i feel quite sick le. The only summary i can say of the show is mass death. Super gory. Sigh. Currently in trauma and recovering.

To all OAC pple, Jiayou with PT and training for YLTC:D Dun give up ya? Jiayou!!

Need to catch up with sleep debt:D Nite

Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Feb 22nd. I'm tired of it all.

Nothing is willing to go right. Try hard as i may.

CCA: Coz of my dumb injury, i haven't been training. With this injury prone-ness plus my lack of skill, My coach is doubting my ability. In fact, so am i. Like i wanted to get a wonked up arm. I KNOW National's indiv is in a month. If i could do something abt it, i would... I know I'm not dat good.... But I've been trying... So whatcha want me to do?

Sometimes i wonder was things really how i wanted them to turn out. Is this what i really want to do? Is this what i find my passion in? Do i have any choice at all? People tell you, you have a choice, but does your conscience or your heart give you one? My conscience never gave me one. Maybe because i was taught that the only way was to listen to it. I don't really know...

Studies: Has anyone been understanding any of the lectures? I don't think i really do. I'm super worried. I dunno how i'm gonna catch up... especially the math lect. He's killing me. I swear he's a master at hypnotism....

Life: Let's just say. It doesn't like me very much recently. Period.

Just feeling irritated. Sigh. I'm sorry.

Anyway, I got our team bag today. It looks really good, multipurpose oso. I like it la but its a bit bulky lor... Sigh...

Looks like my b-day wish isn't gonna come true for a long shot....

Tuesday, February 21, 2006
21st Feb!

My bro's birthday today! So Happy birthday, Dan! :D

Got my New CREATIVE ZEN MICROPHOTO! I seem to have a lil trouble exploring it tho, not used to it. Plus i'm trying not to screw up my input of songs with the program. but it ROX! Azure blue with the amazing aquamarine blue glow to it sooooo cooool >.< href="http://kentan.blogspot.com/">http://kentan.blogspot.com/


Anyway, all the homework today is bogging me down. Its becoming increasingly difficult to cope with stuff. with this injured shoulder i can't train. Which makes me feel guilty. Coz i think i'm letting down the team and my teammates. Just one month to indivs. I'm jumpy. But i can't do a thing, my arm refuses to heal!
Anyway, had dinna with Junhong and Jer, talked abt tons of stuff some quite interesting oso :P ILP looming up sian... My sleep debt is piling up again... sigh need sleep! But tmr got training sian...

I find myself missing dramafeste these few days. feste- withdrawal symptoms. Somehow the evenings and late nights spent with chorale peeps and Alice and all the cast in dramafeste reallie got to me, because it was so fun! Nights seem so empty, afternoons just filled with homework. I miss the " You know's" and the "daddy whoops", i miss the laughter we had with mistakes. The scoldings we received for not doing right for some reason. And even the stoning periods where everyone was too tired to continue. I miss the breaks we spent watching dumb stuff, rehearsing again and again. I miss the fun we had pre-play. Sigh, i miss it all and i hope you guys do too because the memories are just too precious to let up.

A lot of emotional stuff has been piling up recently. Sorting in progress now... post abt it someday perhaps when everything goes back into place.

February 21st!

My bro's birthday today! So Happy birthday, Dan! :D

Got my New CREATIVE ZEN MICROPHOTO! I seem to have a lil trouble exploring it tho, not used to it. Plus i'm trying not to screw up my input of songs with the program. but it ROX! Azure blue with the amazing aquamarine blue glow to it sooooo cooool >.<

Ares CHORALE PPLE! We have had a DAMN COOL PARAGRAPH ON A COOL REVIEW! READ THIS! http://kentan.blogspot.com/

Anyway, all the homework today is bogging me down. Its becoming increasingly difficult to cope with stuff. with this injured shoulder i can't train. Which makes me feel guilty. Coz i think i'm letting down the team and my teammates. Just one month to indivs. I'm jumpy. But i can't do a thing, my arm refuses to heal!

Anyway, had dinna with Junhong and Jer, talked abt tons of stuff some quite interesting oso :P ILP looming up sian... My sleep debt is piling up again... sigh need sleep! But tmr got training sian...

I find myself missing dramafeste these few days. feste- withdrawal symptoms. Somehow the evenings and late nights spent with chorale peeps and Alice and all the cast in dramafeste reallie got to me, because it was so fun! Nights seem so empty, afternoons just filled with homework. I miss the " You know's" and the "daddy whoops", i miss the laughter we had with mistakes. The scoldings we received for not doing right for some reason. And even the stoning periods where everyone was too tired to continue. I miss the breaks we spent watching dumb stuff, rehearsing again and again. I miss the fun we had pre-play. Sigh, i miss it all and i hope you guys do too because the memories are just too precious to let up.

A lot of emotional stuff has been piling up recently. Sorting in progress now... post abt it someday perhaps when everything goes back into place.

Sunday, February 19, 2006
Paying sleep debt day.

Hee, Slept more than 13 hours today... i feel like a pig( which i may already am). Eat and sleep!!! Argh! How am i gonna start running and losing weight? Sianzz! Need control! Cannot be 0.1 ton. Cannot. Cannot. Cannot. NOOOOO. ok nvm. lol.

ZEN MICROCOLOUR!!!! is now on my wishlist! it looks cool plus its hardy except for the contact pt la i heard. I want it so bad. Trying to get my mom to sponsor like 200 bucks. If she does i can afford it le!!! sigh! I want it sooooooooooo bad. She wants to check it out coz she thinks 200 bucks is like v v v v ex ler. ( its 429 leh shhhhhhh. I paying the remaining myself) I'm so sad. Coz its so nice!

Short message. JIAYOU TRACY FOR FLUTE EXAM! Yup :D

Short message 2. Thanks Fungmin for the encouragement :D I will try harder!

Short message 3. I feel so screwed with my arm.

Short message 4. Thanks Thomas for trouble relief :D

Short message 5. Stop bothering me to buy the bag! let me have time to think. And to fetish over the ZEN MICROCOLOUR!

Was troubled over emotions today somewhat. I think paying off my sleep debt helped! Thanks to all the pple who encouraged me. Kat, Thomas and Fungmin thanks loads!!! Anyway, hopemy judo buds did well for comp today! Sorry i didn't go had to check on my wonked arm again. looks like it got a lot worse.

Anyway, you guys must know that there is an Aresian blog go check it out! Lol. Think I'll post tmr again. Hee, my brain isn't working ^^

Saturday, February 18, 2006
Blog update!

I love 06A13! New piccy @ the top of the blog. Wish we had a class banner. Think i'll get my fren to teach me how to make one soon. Then we can put one on our blogs or something. Any improvements that you think can be made pls tell. Trying to make this blog look better sigh. Post later.

Saturday. Sigh. Boring.

I don't know why but i carn help feeling the energy of yesterday lingering. It was an amazing experience and the cheers and smiles was so darn good.

Got a bad start to the day tho. Went for training in the morning and wonked my hand again while fighting with a junoir. I feel sucky la... sigh... feel so weak. Need to work hard... but with my arm like dat for so long i reallie dunno how le...

After dat, i met up with Dacks and went for ac's fun fair. Saw a fair bit of familiar faces there :P it was super chaotic. Afterwhich we hit PS, and like my new tradition i picked up another stupid badge :P So bored recently. Sigh.

I've had pple telling me dat i feel insecure lately. I sorta agree... my buddies have been taxed by the incessant worrying i think So thank u guys!! :P Dunno i think too much i guess and worry. Sometimesi do things dat make me look extra. Say the wrong things. i dunno how to make them all right again. I hav no idea what i can do abt it... I just feel so irritated by it... sigh...

I wish i had some time off to take a breather. but. Schedule. Is. Tight.

Friday, February 17, 2006
Dramafeste!!!

Ok first. To start. Two words. ARES WON!!!!!!! We won dramafeste! 4 awards out of 8 in cluding best play, best supporting actor( Trump!), best onsome (backstage crew and chorale!!! Sorry i mistaked it for best chorale! Apologies to The backstage crew who owned and timed everything perfectly!) and best directors! Thanks go to Alice our chorale main mentor!! We pissed her off by being late so many times and we had so many late nights to do this. Thank you so much for guiding us! Thanks also go to Calvin, our assistant director who often came by to help chorale! All the directors and senoirs, Sheryl, Chin Yuen, Pey Yann all the many people who made this dramafeste so fun and so cool!

I'm so happy cause we didn't make big mistakes during the play! But i think i was slow on one of the daddy whoops's:P. I thought Lilin was darn good and deserved a prize. Our main actress (Lola or i dunno wat's her name:P) was also darn good. They deserve it but didn't get it:( Chorale cheerleaders reallie rocked! We could feel the energy backstage! Damn nice!:D)
I was so nervous for our part lor both the crawling writhing and the daddy wooops. But we did it!!!! We reallie rock! I'm so happy we won! Eric Lim was damn zai who worked with us so well!!!
I was so damn hyper on stage! It's great that all our hard work paid off!! Great job guys!!

To all the " blackie" chorale pplz: Tim yap, Kai Xuan, my fellow A13ers, Kenneth, the two Jh's :P, Junhong, Jeriel, Fuji, Fungmin. Will miss all the daddy whoppies dat we did and all the rehearsals. It was fun la! Watching Kogepan for break! Worrying backstage and stoning around. It was fun!!! The time we spent was damn fun! Thanks for everything.

Junhua was quite cool with the cheerleader thingy. I mean its funny la! But backstage can get goosebumps de :P You guys were damn energetic,

I felt quite high today. After everything. But when it was settled, i guess i would miss dramafeste a lot. Going home at 10. Watching main cast. Altho i dunno them v well sometimes even not their names but they were v zai. Wish we had a chance to talk. To the other pple in chorale cheerleading as well.

It also means everything goes back to boring old normal. Hope something changes soon.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006
V-day (B-Day)!

Crap i typed a post which didn't register. I wanna thank all the people who gave me pressies!!! For my b day or V-day! especially people from 06A13! :D Cupcakes for a b day cake :D LOL very zai idea! It was damn good:P Fungmin's and junhua's cookies are safe to eat and are super delicious. Choc Chip rox! :D i wanna Thank Siyun for her super nice handmade note/keychain!!! Hope your doing great in 75! thanks so much for remembering my b day! Our class wore hairbands today! everyone. The girls made the guys wear so we wore lor:P come in 2 colours only summore: red and pink. I mean the choice a bit narrow lol. But still it was fun. We were the class which caught the most attention! mr Quek wore tracy's purple! Ghey colour!!! :D

This was like the first V day which i actually celebrated la. I mean in Chinese high which guy will celebrate v -day. Wouldn't it be quite... weird? Anyway it was damn havoc! Apologies to Zhi rui for the accident this morning and thank you for your HARO! :D V-day was super fun with presents all over, chocolates and sweets and even stuffed toys. We had tons of fun!!! A memory i'd keep with me!

Dramafeste in 2 days! Everyone in dramafeste chorale let's make all our efforts worthwhile! Dun let down Alice! We did our crawling segment in 2 hours! Its an achievement!! Haha we will rock dramafest and Ares will win!!! :D

P.S Dried peach fruit cake with dried almonds are not a good idea. Trust me

Valentine's day! ( B-day!!)

Monday, February 13, 2006
13th Feb, 3 days encounting.

Dramafeste Chorale rox! We've had tons of fun for the past weeks and working hard for it reallie makes it all worthwhile i guess. Staying back till 9-10 with Alice and the rest have reallie been fun and tiring. I guess its something to look forward to. Something special for us to do. Its been fun watching and doing lines, doing our own special daddy woops:P And having all sorts of fun times. Tmr will be full dress rehearsal and things are gonna get real messy and fun! I haven't got my black shirt yet!!! ARGHHHH!!

Valentine's is tmr... I remember last years Valentine as vividly as any other. It was a nightmare. I hope and pray... this day won't be cursed again. Coz its a special day for me :P

Been writing a lot with Fuji :P he's more pro than me lor! i so many years nvr write le! Now i feel so rusty.

Presents to my angel and mortal or ready sort of. But i dunno if they're good. Hope Sheryl and Jamie will lyk them. The girls have some special stuff too :P

A wish to our chorale IC Alice! I hope she gets well soon! Although she looks sorta fierce sometimes, but she's nice and has been really tolerant of us. Ares will so win this dramafeste!!!!

I've been bored recently, no idea why and very very tired for no particular reason. My injury doesn't seem to get better coz its aching everyday, everytime i carry my bag... But i hope itll heal soon :D

Random stuff: I just like crunchy peanut butter compared to creamy :P

Sunday, February 12, 2006
Two days before V day.

Today was moderately havoc-ky. Woke up in front of my lap top, i mean wth? Probably fell asleep on the floor in front of it sometime last nite. Woke up some time @ 3 coz of some troubling reason.

Anyway, managed to go over to kai's house today!!!! zaiii! haven't been there for ages. Glad he's made up his mind to go into accountancy @ Temasek Poly:) he's been working pretty hard part time for the last two months :P. Hope he has fun there in April!!! Go kai! Anyway, managed to get angbaos there somehow!( Last day of new year LOL!)

I forgot to congratulate Shijia on her 8 A1s! Gratz!!!

Fixed up this new layout but i must say it doesn't look very good. I prefer dark layouts but the rinoa pic plus design doesn't reallie fit my taste. But still it was the best one out there. Hopefully, i can find a better one soon. Anyone got recommendations tell me ASAP plz! Thanks!

Saturday, February 11, 2006
Testing

Due to some errors in my previous background, I've switched it temporarily to this. Until i find a better one :p or until some one recommends another. Well i hope access is easier now:P plus firefox should be able to see this. Will update later

Saturday, 11th Feb

Happy Birthday Jeriel!!!!! The guy who-conincidentally-lives-near-me-and-is-in-the-same-class-and-my-emotional-dumpster at times lol. Although we celebrated it yesterday, we missed out a present. So today me and fuji decided to get him a pressie. Stupid message badges!!! We had one which said, "If i can't be skinny, let the whole world be fat." and dats an oxymoron badge when given to jeriel coz as we know he is REALLY tall and SUPER skinny. Cannot grow fat kind. May all your dreams and wishes come true in the following year. May you gain weight! :P

Chorale was really fun today. I feel quite guilty for making Alice and the rest wait for us while we were late. So many Apologies!!!!:D But it was great dat we managed to sucessfully complete our part!! Its so darn satisfying. We watched Kogepan together and we were all laffing after the wari at the end of each episode. Plus we got to watch the making of dramafeste and it was so funny with wrong lines, and wrong movements! The girls chorale is damn cool! :P But seriously you guys sound and look damn good but its so funny! sorry i couldn't help myself!:P But seriously we'll rock on the day itself! ARES will WIN dramafeste!:D We were damn high! Everytime someone said 5,6,7,8 you see pple snapping their fingers LOL! Junhong was quite hyper oso at some parts lol! And the weird photo got out. Oh crap!

ANyway, gonna go shopping for v day tmr and itsl ike nearly 1. Lol post again soon.

Anyway, gonna get stuff for v dae tmr i think. going broke in record time. Sigh.

Friday, February 10, 2006
O lvls release. All hell breaks loose!

O levels release today. I could almost feel the tension. Photos being taken in class, us playing lame and funny games just before the release of school. I felt pretty scared for everyone... being honest.

Me and Junhong were stuck in the fishtank for 3 and a half hours. Of doing nothing at all. feeling super sian. With everyone back at their own schools... Then the release came. I got an A2 for HCL which was the only paper i took ( is that good?). I dunno i was happy at first, coz it was an A. But when i thought abt it, it wasn't what i expected... Sorta disappointed... A2 is like so near yet so far for me like Kuan Fu puts it. All of us at lee laoshi's tuition got an A2. I hope we haven't disappointed her after all the hours she's put in every Sunday @ her house... But we all were disappointed @ our results, it just feels dat you missed the shot at being the best after all the work you've put in and it sorta sux... I think especially for Lewis, coz his teacher said he wrote his essay off pt. He is really damn good and he deserved the A1. But we all missed the shot i guess...

Glad to hear 06A13 did well though. The girls had tons of A's. I think most of them are staying :) and they really intimidated me lol. Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!! But things will still change... in some way or another.
Messages going out to some pples (coz i dun phrase them well in messages or in person):
To:
Junhong: Hey buddy, i'm as disappointed as you abt the A2. But let's just pia for the future k? Let's make our dreams come true :D

Fungmin: Hey, Cheer up! :D Life isn't always a bed of roses but you did well! expectations can make you feel down sometimes but its ok. We just have to work harder and do better :D plus i would do worse than you @ O's i think. So be happy and Jiayou k?! :D:D

Shumin & Siqi: Your trick quite de evil! Was pretty worried until Junhong let the cat out of the bag! :P haha congrats on doing so VERY well heehee! :D

Sylvia: Glad to hear you did really well! :D (but should be expected hor hmm:P) Anyway, thanks for being a source of energy for the class @ times :D

Tracy: Congratulations again! Your flute piece was really nice! good luck for your flute exams. you'll definitely pass :P

Lee Yang & Paula: Dun worry abt the results! i'm sure you'll make it :D:D Jiayou!!

Finally,
Shijie : hey, no one looks down on you or anything k? This is not the end of the world, no pt thinking abt what's past. Let's just look on the bright side and think of the future alright? Cheer up. Smile. I'll contact you soon.

Chorale tmr, v day coming. Lots of exciting events but at times dampened by certain events. there's a lot of cheering up to be done.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Feb 7th, Tuesday

Today was: one word: Tiring. We ran the familiarisation run at macritchie (3.6km). Which killed me bad enuff. Then PT came with the intensive running schedule. One big round. Sideways one round. up down slope sprinting 3 laps (back and forth). i can hardly walk straight now, and feeling jaded with occasional clouding of vision sigh.

Anyway, i hope all the running helped me lose weight!!! =)

Velden's back for training. i think his coming back really raised our morale a lot. Welcome back capt!

Today wasn't much different from many other days. I feel myself tiring a lot. I hope to keep myself happy and try to keep the class in high spirits. But i can't say i've succeeded very much. At least we have a mass convo going on now! haha, Happy dat its going on and brings more life back to our class spirit! :d

Hope tmr will be fun too! Chorale @ night! ROXORS!
p.S go find orientation pics! they look damn cool!

Sunday, February 05, 2006
Sunday, 5th february

Sunday's been Sunday. I've finally had a day to stick around at home and figure out the word called "rest" :P. Of course, homework i haven't touched and must touch soon... if it piles up i'm dead X.X

Gonna run tmr. Its got to be a must. I love jogging arnd the field in tchs. I just realised that after "connecting with nature". Recollecting with my anime collection today lol:P watched GS again which means i slacked arnd for v v v v v long!!!!!!!:P I live a rather boring individual life. Somehow.

"Because you live" by jesse mccartney. I'm hooked on to this song, touched by what it says, what an existance of a person close to you may mean to you. It made me realise some people, i must cherish... Before all our times are up. I don't know what will happen in the future. Sometimes it scares me. Sometimes it excites me. But when i listen to this song, it lets me understand... living for the moment... isn't so bad after all... (Fungmin has this song on her blog:P that's where i heard it anyway:P)

Feeling sleepy right now coz i just woke up. *shakes head*
Yes that was random. I realised.

I haven't been extremely cheerful these few days. At least inside. As you can see from the long and angsty posts. Its been dat time of the year. Today is the last day of this week. Next week, things are gonna change and become different. I might not like the change. But I'll have to live with it. I heard the "be yourself again" today. I think i will. Hope to see you guys. Good luck. Its the little i can do but i hope this little bit of luck will help you through.

Saturday, February 04, 2006
Feb the 4th, 5 hrs of service learning LECTURE.

The lecture sucked. We were sleeping through it like crazy. The air con was spoilt or something in the LT. Sigh... all i have to say abt that.

No apologies wasn't so bad. I listened. Thought a lot. Dats abt it. And we've heard this kinda talks many times before but this time, maybe it was something different. Singapore Idol's Jerry Ong was our coordinator. Surprise surprise :P i was one of the lucky pple in the bedsheet story who didn't get a disease lol!:p

Anyway, Chingay was fun! I think the people who went really perked up my day. Junhong, Junhua, Fungmin, Gaobin, Fuji and Yida. Although we didn't get to see much of it, but we went arnd orchard window shopping (sort of) thru the crowd. Gaobin got sprayed by WOMAN's VANILLA perfume. He smelt like cake (damn err!) Junhua was damn pro at doing that la! (w00t you rawk!). Then we went to coffee bean where more funny and stupid stuff was discussed. Especially abt "You can call me daniel!" LOL!

Thoughts of today:
I dunno if i've been too hyper recently. Our class just seems more dead now... everyone looks quite burnt out. People might think i'm thinking too much but i hope our class will cheer up for the last stretch that we can be in this EXACT class. People will leave and come. But we are for now THE 06A13 which pwned all the other classes in orientation! CHEER UP! Sigh... i'm sorry to anyone i've pissed off, irritated or annoyed. I really hope everyone will cheer up! Don't get so moody over the o's results and let things take its course. No point worrying abt it, what will come will come so LET's ENJOY! Let's Laugh like we did in orientation and do more fun stuff.

Feel left out at certain occasions, at certain odd places. I dun think i'm the only one. But what will be, will be. I only can be what i can be and not more nor less. What people can or cannot stand, i cannot read thus i cannot change. Even if i could read thoughts, i still might not change. It's me i can be and will be. (random passage coz i feel abt it sometime now)

Thanks to jeriel and junhong for joining me up front at the walk today. That small gesture really made me feel a lot better. Being hyper doesn't always make up for heavy thoughts. Thanks for the support.

P.S One more week guys. Actually 2 days. I've started praying. Good luck.

Thursday, February 02, 2006
February 2nd, Thursday

Hi... had a rather tiring day today although it was a non-training day. Got started with running ( ran with junhong,ken and jeriel:P) and found it was pretty fun running barefoot around the patch of grass inside chinese high track. The run made lit lecture feel like bedtime... sleeping after running always feels good have no idea why.

Been trying to recover from my injury and bout of flu. But the injury won't go away and the flu won't stop plaguing my lungs. I was fine.... until after the run which set me off coughing for i dunno what reason. Training's tmr... think i'll start light... but it just doesn't feel right.

Things have been bogging down recently. Velden is quitting for one... Seriously, he was the one who got all the J1s back to training and we came for the batch when we had seconds thoughts abt quitting as well. He was our capt. He was the one who was always working like hell even when he may not be the best. He worked and we cheered him on. He inspired us to train harder, made our lives more fun after harder trainings. Now he's gone. Things aren't the same. Now there are only 5 after all the tribulations. We lost so many and now we're down to 5. The feeling is indescribable... just feels a bit betrayed...

A lot of people are having their down times recently. I noticed in all the little ways... but i didn't really dare to approach them for certain reasons:(. I hope i can help in some way... but i just dunno how.... I feel so helpless sometimes. So lost. I know i'm not really the person people talk to, I dun think i seem very dependable to people, so i dun really know how to help. But i hope to all those people, recover from this sad lil mood soon and come back lively!! I pray for all your troubles to go away :)

I haven't had the best of times myself. I've been thinking of the old me, the "me" in secondary school and the "me" now. I find that now i love to be hyper, to be laughing, to be smiling, to be listening, to make people laugh (although i fail a lot of the time). Who am I? I sometimes ask that. I try not to try as Eugene once told me, " Don't try too much, coz it doesn't help. Just be yourself." I'll try dat :P Hope I can always stay hyper and happy to brighten up people's moods!

Anyone who can tell me what i can do to brighten up their day, feel free to tell me!!! I'll be very glad to help. I hope everyone can put away their troubles and have fun along with all of us.

Chorale today was fun! We did cool stuff which you guys will get to see (:P Hc pplz watch DRAMAFESTE!). Ares pplz who read this. We are short of pple in chorale do come and join:P Junhong always makes me laugh :P in fact he can make everyone laugh which makes him pretty popular :D:D yes buddy you are!:P He, jeriel and kenneth has made more than one of my days sunny ones. You guys just make my day :P

Anyway, got hw piling up! LOL, post soon. Matta ne!