Sunday, March 27, 2005
March 27th, Life is not the same

its been a long time since i last blogged.... and not many good things have happened since then.

Experiences: Well, to start off on a happy note, I've somehow managed to contact one of my junoirs who was in my p.school again! Well its significant to me for various reasons...... Pingfang might not know why herself but Lewis should noe ^^ Seriously it was a surprise but hey i'm someone annoying and i think I'm bothering her lots..... blas....... other than that. A hellish week ahead. MRp, tests and a stupid 10 page report Qikun is chasing me for. I dunno seriously what i live for nowadays. I dunnoe..... I'm so alone too. Dunno whether this friendship with eugene will last, all he nids atm is yan and his band. Dun think he needs time with me nemore anywayz... No one reallie does. All i need is to study. hecks.... I'm tired....

Thoughts: For the first time in my life, I'm thinking of death... I've always made it my motto nvr to kill myself coz its stupid. But considering it for myself is defying my own code... I'm tired..... reallie tired. All the pressure.... Judo its always aim to win and stuff and wadeva crap they have.... I can't use my comp anymore except for projects which makes blogging like this all creepy work. I can't relax...I can't even breathe sometimes... I desperately want someone to talk to.....On the phone so much so especially....I miss familiar voices... I miss the topics we used to talk about... I miss all the care and concern for each other. The respect, although we nvr notice it, for each other or at least i feel that my respect for whoever i talk to. I don't know anymore... in this skool. This life is changing so quickly with all sorts of classes that my brain is abt to just implode. Everyone says "do this and it'll be better" or " Just do it la" like its so simple but it nvr changes. Its still difficult. Anyway to all my close friends like Yida, YXY, LXY, Gene, CLK and some other peeps..... I miss talking to you guys, especially Dacks. Haha sounds so mushy... bleahx won't be able to say dat in real life that's for sure.

Stuff: Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway is a reallie good song i came across... Last Exile was way kewl. Looking forward to Seed Destiny if i can dl it. And Naruto Chapt 253 proves to be leading to more interesting stuff. Anyway hope to post soon. Ja ne! minna-san!

Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Kombangwa. Long day.

Experiences~~: Long day today..... it was s'posed to be short with skool ending at 1120 but hey Mok wouldn't let us off training so it made me wait in skool till 4 for training. Its so stupid. Forget it. Haven't blogged for ages coz of all the things happening everyday. Tests. Skool. Friends. That kinda thing. Figured out that life should go on even with setbacks and all. Whining about them is part of life but solving them is the more impt part. Those girls from ny stopped msging altogether although i dunno wads happening after they bugged me like hell. Frenz of the girl. Well that was over a long time ago. Digging myself out of a hole of terrible stuff that has happened this year. And i'm trying to find my way out back into this world to continue walking down life's road.

Stuff**: I'm tired while [psting this coz of all the sun roasting us during training. Got a silver for Sunday's competition but i reallie bu4 fu2 qi4. I dun believe i lost to that Raflles twert. I've gotta train harder coz its totally irritating to me. Especially when you see your teammates sweep golds -_-. Well I'll post again tmr perhaps. Talk when I'm not so tired. Ja ne!