Monday, September 17, 2007

1. Fear. What does it mean to you?
It comes in so many forms and grips you in ways conscious and unconscious.
It affects the way you act, the things you say and the way you live your life.
No one is truly free of fear.
But everyone has a weapon to combat fear.

2. Wisdom is not spoken but heard.
Often it is not the mouth which gives wisdom,
but it is how much you listen that determines wisdom.

3. Consistency is the persistence of following one set of values or rules.
Often easily spoken, never easily done.
I know who i want to follow. Do you?

Now you know how i've been spending those times in between ploughing through notes and stoning. It really isn't the time but as i do those walks home with God, i unconsciously ask myself questions which i often cannot answer. But its not a bad thing, because i think it comforts me that i am aware of those things that i cannot do. All the more i rely on His plans because i clearly know that i'm not good, i'm not owning, i'm not superman, i'm just me not someone else. Haha sounds so philosophical but its really just a small lil epiphanic realization that i've managed to come to through all the days of just quietly thinking.

I didn't regret one bit for losing out on revision for Geog to go for JUMP today. I wish all the historians and physicists good luck for tmr!!! :) But it ended up with Me, Leon and Melvin going all the way to Redhill for the praise concert which concluded two days of seminar which of course we couldn't attend :P

I think the greatest thing i noticed of the visiting Thai worship team was their irrevocable joy and true blue energy in simply praising and putting their heart into it. The long awkward lyrics at times didn't matter. Their limited proficiency in english didn't impair them either. The most powerful thing was that they continued spurring people on with them that yielded smiles on our faces. They were charismatic and nonetheless impressive and there's so much so much to learn from their attitude to worship leading. :) Truly kudos to them.

I enjoyed myself simply placing myself in the middle of the atmosphere of peace and a sort of comfort with the air buzzing with excitement at times, pensieve at others. It gave me time to truly immerse myself in something different than what i've been going through. I really needed it, to recharge and find myself again in it all and i'd say that i've gotten back part of something i've been looking for.

Just singing with all my heart. Hearing the words come from my mouth. Stopping. Hearing the mass of voices which join in unison. The words. Who knew that when a crowd sang, it doesn't really matter whether you sing well or not, it sounds beautiful because it is like a wave moving together. A united voice, united in one body.

I've fallen again, help me find my step again.

I miss A13.

Can't wait for prelims to end.

Just waiting on You :)