Tuesday, July 17, 2007

4 words hit me hard today.

" If you are willing."
Sometimes we ask wantonly without thinking of who is the ultimate giver and who is the taker? We just keep asking and asking in everyday prayer. Sometimes its like you receiving a free gift yet you continue to ask for more. The thing we don't notice sometimes is who exactly leads us? Me or Him?

In Matthew, a man of leprosy said to Jesus, " If you will heal me, heal me."
Without hesitation was the reply. " I am willing"
This grace and love which abounds leads to the unwavering and unthinking reply. I will. Without a doubt. That is why i trust in Him, because he never lets me down.

I am truly caught in a mercy fallout.
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Had a very nice talk with Samuel today. (: Examining your life brings a lot of thoughts. Sometimes things you've thought of before, some new, but you always gain different perspectives. Being willing to step up is one thing, being ready is another. But ready or not, i always believe that desire can overcome all the obstacles in the way. Its always about whether you hunger for something enough to go for it. Yeah maybe this impulsive nature is what makes me flawed. Time to check it but not restrain it :)

The reason behind it also lies in something i rmbred all this time. Someone once said that although he might not be as talented or gifted as those in his team but one thing he refused to lose out was desire. I feel the same way. I may not be talented or very well equipped but i want to make sure that in the area i can be equipped, i want to be armed to the very best.

I don't want to falter. Its hard but i know i must overcome it.

Today was one of the better days, not too long but the results that came back weren't too good. I don't want to worry about them cause there's no point. I'll just leave it in your hands. What i can do is to try harder.

Try harder.
Move faster.
And trust.