Wednesday, March 22, 2006
National Indivs day...

Today is the day. Or was the day. I was looking forward to it, but fearing it at the same time. That "B" div gold... i wanted it so badly... But i'm so disappointed with myself... I wanted to beat him, but it only takes a moment of hesitance to kill you. Every single round i fought come to waste at the last... Just to hope to achieve one small goal of mine then reality came crashing down. Just that split second and i would have gotten it... and i blew it. The feeling really sucks...

I feel like an idiot sometimes... telling myself i wanna be the best but not being able to touch gold as yet... But i guess it just means i have to work more dats all... Spending the afternoon with my batchmates really lightened up my mood i guess. :)

Our school did pretty well. B div had like 2 golds, 3 silvers and a bronze, our of four divisions. While A boys, had 2 golds, and two bronzes. A girls had i think 2 golds, a silver and 2 bronzes. We have another 3 months counting down to National Schools team. The grand event. Something else to really hard for lol and reallie hope i do well then... X.X

Skipped school today and hope i'll be back tmr. I need to get back to work again... or else i'll fall behind. Sounding like a mugger but i'm not okay X.X

Anyway, Disappointments are a part of life... things can only get better... right?