Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Stressed. Tired. Totally not confident.

Wake up Call 1: I've been training for 4 years (or so. maybe 3) and i dun feel as if i've improved very much.

Wake up Call 2: We can compete this year B boys... chances are quite high

Wake up call 3: Stressed again... Especially coz i feel as if i'm dragging the team down sometimes...

I feel like a coward and arrogant loser. Have thought abt it more than once. And its true sometimes (or most of the times maybe...). Competition totally stress me out and i don't really know how to react sometimes... I remembered my secondary 2 year. The strain was so heavy, i would crack down late in the nights, sitting up asking myself what i really want. Whether joining was such a good choice... With my batchmates and all behind me, dats when i feel its worth it but sometimes i really wonder how i survived here. I don't have the talent, not even a drop. Now its the last stretch once again, the strain is on and i hope i make it all the way...

Haha, on a lighter note, the judo team has finally managed to BON our captain, the Idoh, King Kong, PIE rocker Hindarto for the second time! Happy birthday AHIN! My training partner and he rox la! pwnj00r. Haha too bad the tabasco sauce came too late! But the ice was fun!

Another person's B day! Shumin! HAHA! I think today really showed how bonded our class was! We can scare someone by saying he/she is changing class. Sorry for the scare :D but you were Punkd!:D happy birthday! 06A13 rox (ooops...:P)

CNY's coming! All the stuff needs to be done! Will blog tmr! Nitez!