Saturday, December 22, 2007

After everything in december its finally coming to a close.

The end of 18 and the coming of NS, a prospect to be entertained.

I read somewhere in a book where one of the protagonists said something interesting.
It goes something like this.
" Everytime we part or say goodbye to a phase in our lives, we leave part of our soul behind."
I thought that if that's the case, leaving and saying goodbye to so many things in this year would really take a huge chunk out of my soul (: although i know the goodbyes maybe temporary

These few days i've been home alone and learning the little pleasures of completing chores and making the place slightly neater (: In the midst of the silence at home, i sometimes ponder about what company means to man. Somehow the house seems a lot emptier and its pretty lonely, but i guess it really shows how God made us to live in communities (: not alone. In all things, we have companionship of people. (:

I've also sat down to think of how to live my life (sorry i'm a very pondering person nowadays x.x) what i really want to do and why i do the things i do. Do i do them for a purpose that is innocently to care and love someone else or am i doing it for other motives? I guess checking out hearts is something that i really wanna learn. Treating people as sincerely as i can and giving them a bit more love in this world where love seems to equate sometimes to sometimes undesirable motives.

Searching my soul, i think i'm really blessed with friends who have really trusted me and allowed me to trust that. Transparency and trust builds the strongest foundations of friendships. To YOU, whom i talked to yesterday ( i hope you know who you are), thank you for sharing and saying i appreciate it only touches the surface (: I thank God for this friendship and that i noticed how he has made you a blessing in my life. Hang on and i'll always be here for you (:

I really really miss A13 now (:
I miss the bench times and recess.
I miss the crazy mugging sessions and jokes.
The stupid times in lit lessons where "orgasmic" describes every single twisted Poe story.
The dumb things we do in class.
Passing one word stories.
Laughing at each other.
I miss you all to bits.

I'll miss HCCG too.
Our regular caregroups at the secret sky gardens and concourse (:
The crapping sessions at benches.
The prayer meets on friday mornings :P
The mugging sessions
The cheers during camp and our fire that never stops burning (:
Our pride in our school and our heart for its people
J1s and j2s, guys and girls making things work, where everyone goes to caregroup with burdens, heavy hearts and frowns, but leave with smiles and light hearted laughter (:
The tears which we sometimes shared :P
The testimonies of lives changed
The teasing of random couples :P
Our trust in each other
Our belief that it takes everyone to make this family a family :)
I don't know how God wove his plan but he wove it beautifully and made it work, All in his grace because compared to what He did, we did little.
The lessons of life i learnt, in security and confidence in God, in trusting people, in loving people, in communicating, in really sharing lives, in caring for each other and going the extra mile, and by learning of a family that is out of the ordinary. I think there are no families like this one (:, always growing, always loving and always aiming to change lives.
Now some of us may part, but not forever, because i think somewhere in our hearts, no matter how much we say that we need to move on and have settled down to go elsewhere to impact others, we all saved a little bit of this family in us.
Maybe someday we'll come together to look back and see how this was the start of many of our walks with God, many changes in our lives.
personally, i think this two years have made the greatest impact in my life for these 18 years.
And i want to thank every single one of you for teaching me a little bit more about life (:

Honestly, i came to HC with a grudging heart. I was part of IP but i was tired after high sch. Tired of the culture. weary of the pressure and wanted to start afresh. But i didn't know the last two years in this sch could mean more to me than anything else (:

Now its time to move on and bless others.
May the miracles continue to spread on (:
Thank You for everything




Let the memories speak for themselves (: