Friday, October 12, 2007

Grad day came and went, time flies and blurs as our post prelims are speedily speeding away like road runner on steroids. Just a mere 18 days to the Awful A's but the bonus of it all is looking at the freedom at the end of the road.

Grad day was nostalgic and inevitably filled with a twinge of the sorrow of parting. But in a sense we haven't parted so the atmosphere was somehow lighter. Watching the class video brought back memories. How we fought to stay together, the various divides and the eventual unity, FOS which yielded a self made medal :P and a new spirit to stay strong together, saying goodbye to a dear friend, simply standing by each other as we go through tough times. 06A13 its been a good two years :). Feelings go beyond words at times. And this is one of those moments.
We had our differences. We had our oddities. But we're a class of 07 of Ares of A13.

I know You placed me here for a reason or reasons. Some are obvious, others are not so. But eventually, you turned my life around by placing these wonderful people around me :)

I tend to forget my basics very easily. Mary more so than Martha. God first loved for us to love, a simple fact which we often forget. To learn to love another for who he and she truly is, can we truly do it? On a level its difficult to take the step to say you want to do it. On another level its even harder to love because your won human adversion is in place. I'm not the best person to love. I let down people, i fail, i fall, i succumb to thoughts and emotions, its all true. But yet against all hope, i know that i have hope in God :P, sound familiar? Faith is not simply knowing God and trusting in God when you are going through good and bad times. I learnt that faith is also the confidence in God and your heart for Him. The tests that come your way may seem unexplainable or too difficult to overcome, so much so that self doubt and various emotions cover up your heart, but eventually and always eventually, you see past it. Sometimes you may not drop it, but you come to accept and see the fruits of your labour. Its always easier to talk and not do, but its a few levels more difficult without identifying a problem.

If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

- I corinthins 13.

Love is not self-seeking. It is not about me but about you or someone else. Love never expects something in return, not even when you've given every fibre of your being into doing something out of love. I admit that it is crazily difficult to resist the thoughts going through your head because you automatically expect someone to sacrifice a little for you as well, but when it doesn't come you are left hanging. Love is not self-seeking, how far can I go?

have you topped up your love bank today?
for i may gain the treasures of the world or wisdom to destroy or create, But without the capacity for love, we gain nothing.

Too many excuses, too many expectations, too easily affected, too enraptured in the wrong things. But every flaw makes me human. Every flaw gives me a chance to walk a new path with my Saviour :)

To lead the weak you must become weak. What does it mean to you?