Saturday, September 22, 2007

I still remember the time i tore a page in a book and when my aunt asked who did it, i didn't own up but shut up. That was quite a few years ago :P

But similar to human nature, maybe as a defensive mechanism, we're always first to deny what we've done despite the nagging guilt in our heart. Taking responsibility, that heavy mantle in exchange of the " not my problem"s, the "it could be him what"s, the "its all their fault"s. But what was said today is true. He who takes responsibility is always one step closer to success, one step away from continued lying, one step away from feeling the dark, heavy covering of guilt. Yet it is so difficult for many of us to simply step out and say, " Sorry i did it. Its my fault." Instead we try to find reasons for our mistakes. I no doubt am as human, maybe more human like everyone else.
Doesn't that challenge ring out to you?

I felt the challenge landing squarely on my shoulders today, for more reasons than responsibility. For the reason of a voice which gave me a message of what was to come and me seeing it come to pass, well, it doesn't shock me but the essence of the message sobered me. We cannot live for the moment everyday of our lives. One day we've gotta decide that yeah its time to do something with this life. The words ring in my mind. Although honestly it scares me, but i know what i want to do about it. Thank God for planting the first question squarely in my mind for days. Who am I? :) Well its an interesting question with an interesting answer :)

I feel accomplished to some extent covering a math prelim paper today!!! HAHA never thought mugging could feel this good without a test looming up. In a sense, mugging gives me time to think alone too. Its odd that i take long periods of time to think rather than do it in small slots a day. I just think its a quirk of mine :)

Friendship & trust.
Where do your barriers and links lie?

I think i may have found something that i've been looking for.
Maybe some part of it.
But its quite beautiful :)

Live everyday a joy.