Sunday, April 08, 2007

Disappointment. That's how i felt.

Today is Easter and it seems that i've landed myself in a fair share of debates today.

But thanks to a gentle reminder, today is the day that You died for me. And for that there is no excuse why i shouldn't rejoice.

For all that things that are in my life, complicating, distracting, worrying, disrupting, turning it topsy turvy, I only have one answer to them which is keeping me afloat. In the toughest times and I'm caught in a room to myself, choked by the stifling stresses and irrepressible urges to runaway, I am reminded that someone didn't and gave it all for me. When trust gives too much responsibility to bear, I throw it up there because i know its in safe hands.

To my fellow shep: Its not that i don't know what your saying. I understand but I'm not stuck at the point anymore. I know what i need to do and let me do it for once.

I am definitely not the best, not even close, I'm so flawed that if i were a sponge, light shines through every hole. The things i do, may not be the best solution, maybe my stubborness adds to it. But i know that if i trust, and if i give it my 100%, I'll feel at ease because i know i did my best.

When Your love touched my heart again on this day, I teared. For I remember your great love.

At the Cross, I bow my knees,
For the blood you shed for me,
there's no greater love than this.