Sunday, February 25, 2007

Running away. Dunno whether its the right way to do it but seems like the easiest way to avoid weird questions. or objections.

I just wanna love you all my life. So i wanna make this decision. It may seem simple for others but its different for me i guess. It'll affect my whole life. It'll affect things at home if it gets out. But You are definitely worth it. So i'm gonna make it. Although i don't deny i feel afraid. But I just want to love You. Coz its what's important.

A big THANK YOU to Da kompany for the cap :P hahahhaa although i was being difficult saying i dun wear caps, but the beautiful cap takes a place in the special presents collection! Thank you all so much! I shall wear it often :P :D Thanks for making my day :)

I remember the times when i was afraid of singing worship songs, saying that pledging my soul and life to love You for all eternity sounded to scary because it sounded like i was giving everything away. But now its so different. Because it isn't giving everything away but entrusting it to You so that you can bless me even more, give me even more joy as i choose to spend all my time with You. You gave me all the wonderful friends around me who have never failed to make me smile and feel comfortable. Even in tough times, I'll lean on You. Because i know you've got my back.

All of you out there reading this, thank you for being there for me. Thank you for making me smile, especially my dear CG and 06a13, because every smile spurs me forward. Don't know what i'd do without you guys.

Stuff at home is getting me all bothered and sometimes its a trouble struggling with it alone, trying to cap the lid on temper, trying to keep it going because its so frustrating but i dun wanna get into unnecessary trouble because i wanna respect them. Becoz He taught me how. But when i am with you guys (you know who you are), I just smile and laugh like i always can do. And i thank God for you guys, and I really appreciate it because I can keep laughing.

Rejoice and rejoice in the day the Lord has made :)

There's nothing to trouble about, all we can do is try harder, work harder, live life, know that He's got my back, keep moving forward, don't look back, smile, smile and smile even more because frowning ain't gonna help. Go jonny go, I can do this :)