Saturday, December 23, 2006

Christmas used to be simply a time of presents, log cakes, watching lame shows on TV, eating dinner and playing games. Those random family gathering nights with us only knowing we're gathering for Christmas.

What is Christmas? Why must we give? Why is it a festival of giving?

Who cared... we just needed to live life as it is and treat it as some festive holiday.

What changed on this day? Nothing except maybe a few presents which made you happier.

Then...

It all changed.
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Christmas cards... after all the writing for everyone on the list, i found myself really looking at everyone and the ways they've grown and the attributes which i admire and rely on sometimes and some of them really have impacted my life without me realising. God has really answered a lot of prayers through these people around me, my Caregroup CE2!!! CE1, CCGmates :D and all my leaders :D.

Every hurdle i stumbled out of foolishness and lack of faith, but instead of leaving me lying there, the took me out and washed me clean, and helped me on my way again. So i've stumbled a half million times and limped and walked on this path with God. I haven't regretted it, I never will.

When the Christmas cards went in and out, I really was quite amazed hahaha, so many people, so many gifts and cards and words and memories! When i got home, i just sat down and flipped through and i think my heart was warmed and really encouraged and strengthened, i felt warm and fuzzy enveloped in God's love through these people as well as all their care and concern!

I never had so many letters before. In fact, i dun think i've ever had letters for Christmas before. The experience was just... quite amazing and quite touching for me sometimes. You never know when another echoes your thoughts through that paper and just dat you've never voiced it out.

Haha, Thank God for YOU bringing me to Hope and the past is behind :) Hope you know who YOU are :D thank you for leading me and giving me this chance to change with God and I'm living the life that God changed by your simple but difficult action. God bless.

I think some of my cards were simply shorter than i wanted them to be coz of time. Start earlier next year.

But i wanted to let you guys know, thank you for changing my life.

This Christmas, i know what i'm living for, i know what christmas is all about and i know why we give.

For He gave His one and only Son to us.

The first Christmas as a Christian and i see so many lives changed. I see our group GROW! Which proves and shows that God answer our prayers 100% us and 100% Him :)

I pray for all our new believers, that they hold strong and that You'll be there for them in storms of objection or discouragement. For Lord you are our rock and in You, we CANNOT be shaken. Please hold them in Your arms...

To some who haven't received my cards, they're on the way x.x

My life spinned 180 degrees.

To one where i can smile with a lighter heart.

With a place and a family i could give my all to.

I'm content.

Family's starting to step in though. Things might be a bit messy but won't stop me.

Like in the SF convo :) Just Jiayou. Just Zham. God will provide. Live it out and things will be fine.

Thanks everyone... :)

I truly feel Hope :)